tell me

life has just started.

tell me about life, once again..
although i've grown up and i've heard about it before..

tell me about life, once again..
cuz i feel that i wanna know more..

tell me about life, once again..
as i'm afraid that i've chosen the wrong way..

tell me about life, once again..
as i want to remake this all again..

it's not too late,
and it's not too early either..

all i want is to have a fresh start,
be a new person,
have a better attitude,
appreciate people more,
complain less
and of all that,
i wish for a happiness in life that whatever comes in, will be appreciated
and i want to be more grateful of the blesses that He, Allah The Almighty gave me...

i want to be someone better, inside and outside..
as i'm afraid that if i let myself go further,
it will drown..

so dear,
tell me again a once-upon-a-time story about life,
for this time,
i'll be all ears for what ur going to say :)

after all the who's and why, it has finally came to the conclusion

so yesterday i dunno whether i'm going to utp or not..
and today, during breakfast my parents decided that i should..
and to this point, i'm actually neutral for any answer from them..
like if they say i shouldn't then i'm okay..
but..
the moment they said, we guess u should..
i was like..
whatttt *in a cool way of course*
seriously..
rlly?
i should go?
and it's mix-feelings..
idk what to say..
i feel nervous that it's going to be so far away and i've just got the chances to treat my lil sis nicely *lol*
and this is my first time staying away from my family *surprise2*

but anyway...
i'm not asking for much.. i just hope for these things..
washing machine. wifi. refrigerator.. and good food. please..
at least they have a near express mart and sell breads and spread-stuffs, jelly or anything.. and chocolate of course please..
and a nice roommate.. hopefully a talkative one like me so life would be merrier :)

besides separating with my family,
i'm going to get a new laptop insyaAllah..
and i'm super excited that i'll have one of my own..
not that i want it for my own,
it's just that, it feels cool to have one of your own you know..
so that's the good thing to look up to,
only i wish that i cn buy them with my own money if i work,
but it seems like earning my own money would be somewhat later, for now..
so that's it..
please pray for my safety and comfort..
may Allah bless you all, have a great day people :)

since life is an option

The uncertainty in life kills me..
It is not a great murder though since i find it amusing and hilarious..
that i laugh so much and i die..
but then i live again..
blur and curious,
asking myself the same question again..
look at the wall,
and finally decided,
hey it's just the same thing over and over again until i choose..
and put a stop to it..

making decision is always tough for me..
and i realized that it becomes more severe as i grow up
and it is serious since a lot of important decision needs to be made when you've grown up..
i kinda sort it out when i was form 5 by deciding to follow my guts whenever i need to decide..
without proper thinking, i just do what i think i should do..
consequences are to be dealt later on..
and it's fine for me though..
nothing hurt so far..
and it's fun and thrilling :D
however,
when i'm 18,
i would love to do the same thing..
but the problem is,
if it's just about me and my world,
it will totally be as easy as ABC..
the problem is,
it's not..
it's about others too..
like when deciding on a course or whether or not i will go to a university,
the thing is not just about me..
it's also about my parents and my family..
they are the one who will pay my expenses and stuff..
and if i just want to give a try in a certain course and spend away a bunch of money.,
it's not totally worth it..
it's like throwing 17K to the sea just for fun..
and worse, it's not even my money that i used..
it's my parents' and my sisters'

so that begs me to think more and deeply in taking things to consideration..
it's not that i'm taking this too much..
it's just that i wanna make sure that i have a clear vision of what i want for my future..
although i dunno how my future looks like,
but at least i have a vision of it and if anything happens,
well, i can say i've tried my best and things just don't come out the way i planned..
that would be fine for me..

lately,
i've been offered to UTP for an ict course..
and i received several responses..
some laugh, some shut themselves up and some congratulate me, which is a good thing.. thanks guys..
and, i'm very touched with the help from my debate family..
they surely help a lot until i thought that, in the time of need, debate family helps the most..
but no no..
Allah helps the most, that's why He sent me these great people..
and seniors from UTP also helped me a lot..
and i'm touched..
like seriously,
we don't even know each other and they like,
hey, when you've decided your choice, do inform me okay?
and this one akak told me,
if u went to utp, maybe we'll meet there and if u don't, maybe we'll run into each other in the real life.. so just inform me whether you're going or not later..
and i'm touched..
:')
awh why people are so nice

oh and this is a guideline from kimi on how to pick a course..
it is really helpful for me.. and maybe u guys too :)

ok here's a guideline of what to assess prior to deciding what course to pursue in.. 1. Job Prospect- how is the job demand when u graduate in that particular field 2.what possible jobs can u have if u graduate in that field- very important. i'ts important to know that your field of work is wide and flexible. petroleum engineering is not flexible3. how much is the pay for those occupations 4. how is the course. what are u actually gonna study. how long does it take 5. in what institutions is that course famous and acknowledged that's basically what u need to research before deciding


and about my utp offers,
i let my parents decide because to this certain point,
i'm already prepared for any possibilities..
hahah..
maybe i find a job or continue babysitting if they don't think going is the best choice..
and if they do,
oh well,
why life moves so fast? and just one thing, i wish they have a washing machine.. i never want to wash my clothes on my own..
sakit tengkuk and tangan..
meh, i'm not spoiled.. i just love technology that much :D

and just now my sister asked me a question about chemistry and i cannot do the equation..
how2?
i'm afraid slowly, everything that i learnt will be swept away just like poof..
meh.. takutnye..
i love chemistry though..
huhu whatever it is,
let's pray to Allah for His decision is always the best :)

recap of 2013 :D

"it's the fun of hitting the ups and downs in life that i cherished the most in 2013 :D"

well to be honest, 2013 is the best year i've ever had so far.. and i'm so thankful that i've been blessed with such beautiful people and events that makes my life feels more exciting and challenging.. it's truly a gift.. alhamdulillah :) and surprisingly, this may not be a fun entry cuz it's long n it's about my life so, choose the topic (tuition - kawan2 - cerita sekolah - spm - conclusion) that u preferred to read or just skip this entry cuz meh idk if it's worth it for ur time.. time is gold u know.. and i am silver.. so bcuz gold is better than silver.. sometimes u have to ignore me u know.. :D

so this year,
a lot of unexpected-extraordinary things happen..
it almost kill me every time..
lol just kidding..
it's not that big like a war or something, but it is something that i never face and expected before..

so im gonna stick to malay this time cuz it feels more honest from me..

1) tuition

so thn ni,
aq kena gak update psl tusyen.. sbb kwn2 tusyen aq thn ni sgt2 special..
ive already made a post earlier abt em..
and tu kwn2 room 4..
aq ade gak join kls room 1 tiap2 hri jumaat..
klu room 1 aq rpt ngn nazirah n farhana..
klu ngn nazirah aq slalu borak psl ssid, izzue islam, tiz zaqyah.. pstu psl hal2 skolah..
kdg2 rse mcm menteri pelajaran plak lol..

and pastu adela en sekali ni ad intensif kt tusyen..
aq promote kat sarah sruh join..
and sarah pun join tp dia sorg2 xde kawan, so aq pun joinlah skali..
lps tu..
aq ni matlamat hidup jelas sket, *sblm spm*
dtg tusyen blaja je, fokus..
pstu adelah somebody ni..
for some reasons, step into my life..
like i dunno hw it happened, it just did..
pstu haru kejap hidup aq..
mula2 happy gak..
tp lama2 aq rse aq hlg fokus dlm pljrn aq..
mse trial la teruk..
sbb ntah knp wlupun kitorg x sme kelas,
byk plak coincidence satu per satu..
dlu mgkin aq rse mcm, wht a coincidence!
tp skrg aq rse, meh, dunia ni kecik logically,
and religiously, kdg2 syaitan mmg ske cocok2.. biasela kerja dia..
yang kita ikut tercocok tu knp en..
so ble dh tersedar tu,
slowly la aq recover blk..
ecehhh..
n alhamdulillah mse spm aq dh full recovery lah..
cme adela aq sakit mse subjek killer2 tu sbb minum air sejuk..
tp xdela sbb bdk tu dh..

all in all,
hidup ni, mmg kdg2 kita trumbang ambing sbb tu kena doa byk2 utk kuatkan hati n tmbhkan pengetahuan agama.. :)

skrg ni ble aq igt blk bnda tu lwk la gak cuma xleh la buat cmtu klu kita nk brjaya dlm hidup..
jgn fikir dan layan benda yang x perlu..
hati ni klu terusik, susah..
so kita kna sntiasa fokus dgn matlamat hidup kita..
:D

ok back psl tusyen,

tusyen kitorg awesome sbb acik tu pndai masak mknn sedap2..
cikgu kitorg sgt2 baik..
slalu fhm kalau aq miss kelas ke ape..
dorg akn ajar balik personally..
and kalau nk exam en,
cgu akan separate kls ikut exam subjek ape..
prnah skli tu, dlm kls aq, smua nk periksa fizik,
cgu pun ajar dorg fizik tp aq plak sorg2 nk periksa mathmode,
so cgu Alia bagi aq soalan2 mathmode sruh buat and klu x fhm tnye dia..
pastu cgu terangla satu2..
like seriously baik gler..
n kwn2 kat tusyen aq byk ajar psl life,
the reality,
the people,
n the most important thing, jgn judge org..
pstu speedmart dekat gler ngn tusyen..
tiap2 hari aq pegi beli teh hijau pokka :D

2) kawan2

weyh 2013 ni xleh ckap psl kwn2..
sbb seriously mmg dorg awesome..

fizah, sarah, syra, enamira, enab, farhah, nili, dina, aina, jat, aya, amira, yb, fatin, yam, madi, saadah n yg lain2 gak i love u guys n thank you :')

n tetibe skrg ni aq rse rindu kat yam plak..
wlupun yam garang,
tp yam ni baik.. n dia berdisiplin..
n dia jugak sensitif :D
pastu yam ni suka balut hadiah..
klu korg mcm aq en,
pemalas dlm smua hal termasuklah utk menggerakkan jari jemari utk balut hadiah,
beli je pembalut, selotep, gunting, pstu bawak gi skolah..
pstu dduk dpn yam,
kluarkan smua bnda tu,
pstu action sket mcm nk balut en,
nnt msti yam tny kau nk dia tlg x..
hehehe..
pstu bagi je yam..
dijamin kualiti mmbalut mengalahkan hospital 5 bintang..
siap ade lipat2 lah kipaslah..
lawaaaa glerrr...
pstu yam pndai buat belalang, udang..
mcm2.. pkai daun pokok je..
hebat en?
aq tukang tgok je..
pstu ble dh siap aq amik hahaha..
*nampak x aq rindu yam*

pastu dh citer pasal yam nk citer psl trio aq plak..
kitorg bknlah geng..
sbb bler aq dh msuk maahad ni, byk blaja pasal assabiyah en..
so aq lebih prefer utk kawan ngn sume org n klu blh sume org dlm kls tu jd kwn baik aq..
sbb ntahla sshla nk geng2 bagai..
x best..
tp dorg ni jd trio aq sbb kami bertiga asalnya dri 4 ibs..
pstu, slalunye kitorg brtiga ni mmg berkepit ke mana2..
trio aq ni ialah sarah n fizah..
sbb, fizah ni pen.ketua.kelas/tingkatan (pkt) kitorg..
so bykla urusan negara dia kena buat..
aq plak pengawas p.sumber je tp ade gak kerja2 yg kena buat..
sarah ni badar, pun sama..
utk pengetahuan awam, kt maahad ni smua manusia bz..
dari murid biasa, cikgu, shinggalah ke tukang sampu dan acik tukang masak..
tnyelah..
smua bz weyh.. series..
so, kitorg ni slalu teman each other klu ade urusan pape..
yelah org kata, kwn yg baik ni, susah sng msti bersama hehehe
pstu mmg funlah hari2 aq kat maahad..
dgn fizah slalu borak psl one Direction..
sarah plak,
dia ni blur gler..
hahaha
pstu naif yg teramat..
so hmpir stiap hari jgaklah aq kenakan dia.. tp popia basah lg slalu kena prank dgn aq.. sbb semeja ennn hahaha..
n sarah buat rekod sbg mangsa plg byk kena sorok kasut ngn aq..
dulu aq tgok bdk putera je sorok kasut ni..
skali aq trylah en sorok kasut sarah..
rpe2nye best jgak sorok kasut org ni..
so starting from tht day,
mmgla hbes sarah jd mngsa..
enab ngn farhah pun prnh kena gak..
kuang3..
n ade satu hri tu,
kelas kitorg bru pasang karpet,
so kiranya sblum msuk kls, cabut kasut dlu, nk pegi makmal bru pakai..
n mse tu kitorg tgh wktu fizik kut..
pstu sarah ni lambat..
sbb tu gelaran dia nenek 2.O..
aq pun ajk yb sorok kasut dia..
yb tanya, wey nk sorok kat mane?
aq ckp, jauh2lah wey.. kls razi pun xpe.. *kls razi tu kls sblh je*
pstu ble sarah kluar dia cri kasut..
n btw kitorg sorok kasut sblh je slalunye..
org lain smua dh pegi makmal tggal aq ngn sarah je..
sbb sarah ni mmglah ya ampun kenenekannya terserlah..
pstu aq pn buat2 x tahu smbil tlg dia cri kasut walhal aq yg sruh yb sorok..
skali mmg xde..
aq pegi cek kat kelas razi ngn rusyd..
pun xde..
so sahlah yb mmg dh sorok jauh2..
aq pun rse serba salah..
xtau nk buat ape..
sarah ni plak,
pkai je kasut sblh yg ade tu and dia lari terhincut2,
dari hujung blok smpi tangga..
kalau aq, mgkinla aq brkaki ayam terus drpd pkai sblh kasut en..
tp sarah x,
dia pnye smgt smpi siap lari trhincut2..
aq ni tgok,
nak gelak pun ade, kesian pun ade..
yelah.. aq gak dalangnye..
rpe2nye yb sorok kasut sarah kt bawah kat makmal..
pstu aq pn mengaku aq yg sruh tp x expect lah en sejauh tu..
pstu yb kata alang2 dh sorok, biar jauh betul..
pstu hbes a aq kena ngn sarah..
huhuhu

all in all,
kwn2 aq thn ni sgt setia ngn aq thru ups and downs..
n tbh thn ni byk kli gak aq frust, kecewa, kdg2 nk putus asa pun ada..
tp dorg smua sentiasa bagi semangat kat aq..
ssh senang sama2..
bg nasihat, teman ke mana2..
all of them..
ble aq rse hopeless n sedih sgt,
syra akan peluk and ckp it's alright..
fizah plak, sntiasa ade utk aq.. dgr cerita smua and sgt memahami,
enab plak slalu bg kata2 smgt ble aq down..
sarah, slalu dgr n klu aq salah dia akn tegur..
farhah pun sama..
amira selalu dgr cerita2 aq..
yb slalu tlg aq dgn pndpt2 dia..
aya pun slalu nasihat aq..
madi slalu jd lawan debate aq,
saadah slalu share citer2 best,
enamira my gossi girl,
jat yg prihatin,
outsiders yg cool,
thx koranggg i love u guys lillahhi taala :)
n sebenarnye mmg aq nk citer byk2 lg psl kwn2 aq,
tp aq rse nnt mmg x smptla nk post bnda ni hri ni en..
so nnt la aq buat tab khas utk kwn2 tercinta aq.. hehehe

3) cerita sekolah

mse awal thn en,
aq sedih sketla.. sbb kena turun kelas..
elok2 dulu ibs, skrg kena turun kelas.. tp salah sendiri la slalu x masuk kelas mse form 4..
pastu aq sbnrnye x pernah turun kelas dri darjah 1..
and nak jadikan citernye,
masa dpt tahu turun kelas tu rasa mcm kena tampar kat muka *hiperbola sket*
sebab yelah, form 5 en nak spm pastu tetibe result akhir tahun teruk plak..
haru gak masa tu fikir, seumur hidup aq skolah, smua class first sekali tang yang dah last2 ni, yang dh nak keluar skolah la aq turun kelas..
huhuhu..
tapi masa skola bukak tu aq dh mentally and emotionally stabil skit sbb dah pke2 en, dan aq rasa turun kelas bukanlah penghalang utk berjaya..
hahahaha.. besides kat kelas razi ramai kwn2 ibs aq yg dulu..
kami diturunkan secara berjemaah huhuhu..
so masa bkk skola tu aq dh x kesah sgt sbb paradigma pasal 5 ibs ni msti kelas kubur..
so aq rse macam alhamdulillah aq msuk razi.. mgkin rezeki utk aq meningkatkan bakat membuat bising aq..
and first day skolah, macam biasa, aq akan bgun gler awal untuk cop tempat yang plg best dlm kelas..
so pagi2 kul 4:30 kut aq bangun, siap2 pastu sampai skolah aq cop barisan tengah and yang depan sekali *kat maahad putera smua ddk depan, so puteri kena ddk blkg dorg*
kiranya aq cop tempat plg depan puteri blh dduk..
pastu aq copkan skali, tmpat sebelah aq, blkg aq dan sekitarnya utk kawan2 baik aq hehehe..
kiranye mmg bestlah en,
tempat duduk aq, tengah, depan, bawah kipas, sblh kwn2..
tapi dah kitorg ddk happy2 tu..
tetibe angin bertiup kencangnya mengatakan kitorg kena rombak kelas..
bru sehari masuk kelas kena tukar kelas lagi and im like what...

pastu tup2 aq kena tukar masuk ibs..
tapi yang x bestnye budak ibs x byk yg kena tukar.. dua tiga org je kut..
so kiranya aq xleh cop tempatla sbb dorg dh dduk tempat masing2..
aq pun rasa cam pffttt..
dah awal2 bangun cop tempat smua skali kena tukar..
pastu mse nk masuk tu aq sedih sketla..
kwn2 x ramai n kena ddk belaaaakang skali n aq dhla rabun..
aq mmg x suka tmpt belakang2 ni..
rasa cam jauh gler dari cikgu..
tp alhamdulillah sarah and fizah ade..
semangat dorg mengangkutkan meja kerusi utk letak kat blkg untuk aq..
and aq pun lega skit..
n mse tu aq duk sblh madi n blkg aina dgn jat..
aq awkward gak bbrp bulan pertama.. ecehh..
tp lme2 lps tu,
barulah aq tau jat ni minat kpop..
aq ni dulu peminat setia gak..
tp lama2 dh kurg sket sbb band fav aq super junior dh berpecah belah..huhu
tp adik aq ni mmg peminat kpop gak..
so slalu aq dgr citer n update trbaru kpop ni..
wlupun aq dh x bkk allkpop tiap hri mcm dlu, aq taula the latest psl kpop2 ni..
pastu aq pun kamching a ngn jat..
dh minat same en :D

jat ni byk barang..
slalu gam, gunting smua aq mintak kat dia..
pastu dh dduk blkg kelas en..
x nampak, x dgr..
pastu time ngantuk2 tu, slalu la aq borak ngn madi..
kadang2 gaduh pasal peraturan skolah yg x munasarawak..
pastu tetibe baru sedar..
eh apela cgu ckp tadi..
so jat ngn ena lah terang blk satu satu hehehe..
n klu ade bnda x fhm tu tanye dorg je..
sbb dorg mmg pandai..
pastu lama2 rajinlah plak kitorg ni bkerjasama..
klu ade yg aq fhm dorg x fhm, aq ajar..
yg dorg faham aq x faham, dorg ajar..
best ah.. dh rse mcm family..
pstu aq ni kuat mkn..
tp sbb penolong ketua pengawas duk sblh..
xdptla den nk meneruskan hobi tercinta.. huhu..
skli dh bulan berapa tu,
madi tukar tmpat ngn aya..
aya pun mcm aq gak,
trcampak kat ibs mse hari kedua..
kwn2 kitorg byk kt kelas lain..
so aya duk sblh aq..
aq ni sbnrny x brp rapat ngn aya dulu..
tp aya ni cool hehehe..
so smnjak dri tu dptlah aq meneruskan hobi mengisi perut yg lapar..
sbb slaluny rehat x smpt makan..
so aq bli mknn n makan kt kelas..
peraturan skolah mmg x blh sbnrnye..
and klu madi sblh aq mmg dia x bagi mkn..
aq fhmlah tanggungjawab dia en..
betulla ape dia buat tu,
tp aq suka buat peraturan sndiri..
pada aq en,
peraturan ni function dia utk memudahkan hidup manusia..
n peraturan ni haruslah flexible mengikut keadaan..
macam islam.. :D
so pada aq,
selagi makanan tu x tumpah, x kotorkan kelas, n bukan masa cgu mengajar,
bolehla makan..
so starting from that rajinlah kitorg sharing kerepek, roti dan sbgainye..
aya pun slalu ade stok makanan and aya mmg pemurah..
so menggemuklah aq dduk sblh dia..
tapi aq happy hahaha...
pastu jat ena.. slalu a kitorg passing2 makanan..
seronok plak aq rasa..

and ena ngan jat ni cool gler..
klu kena gruping ke ape,
kadang2 aq join kumpulan dorg..
dgn nik aina, husna..
sebarisla dorg tu..
dorg smua baik2 n sporting..
kdg2 ade gak aq menyakat dorg..

pastu nak pendekkan lagi citer,
kitorg smua kena rombak lagi tempat...
tukar buat style grup..
so aq pun dduk dgn aya, enab, farhah, dina n nili..
seriously aq ckp..
bnda ni unexpected gler..
like aq x sangka a kitorg jd rapat gilos lps dduk semeja tu..

n aq x taula npe tetibe aq jd hyper-happy plak dduk dlm grup tu..
aq rse tiap2 hari kut aq menyakat dorg..
smpai ade satu hari tu aq kenakan enab, pstu enab kenakan aq, last2 gaduh..
tp gaduh main2 la bkn yg series mcm taufan katrina tu..
tp best gler a..
pastu sarah n fizah plak blkg aq..
like dekat gler sbb ddk dlm grup so mcm klu duduk en kerusi kitorg berlanggar sbb dekat sgt..
so senanglah nk kenakan each other..
kadang2 masa tgh berdiri ke,
kitorg main tarik2 tudung..
sbnrnye aq rse fizah ke sarah tah yg tarik tdung aq dlu,
pastu enab pun join skali..
agak tah pape lah sbnrnye..
pastu enab dia suka tarik tudung org tp klu bab tudung dia,
dia sgt sensitif..
sehingga sanggup buat perjanjian damai spy x de org tarik tudung dia..
hahaha..
man.. cerita pasal grup popia basah ni aq kena sambung kat tmpt lain..
byk sgt nk citer..

tp classmates aq mmg awesome..
fyi kelas ibs xdela kubur pun..
bising je mengalahkan hantu cina..
lps tu ceria, meriah..
best sgt2!
and kwn2 sporting, klu nk tnye pape dorg on je..
pstu dorg x nerd tau.. slalu je lggar peraturan, aq pun sama.. hahaha
to farhah, enab, nili, deena, aya, sarah, fizah, ariefah, yb, atiqah, yam, hazirah, nad, el, wardah, madi, siti sarah, nik, aina, jat, husna, azwa, idris, muntazar, wafie, mat nor, arsyad, mibon, ameer, ariff ikmal, hafizi, mirep, openg, muqri.. thx for the wonderful senior year :)

all in all,
form 5 aq dkt maahad hamidiah best glerr
alhamdulillah, aq dpt closure yg baik utk zaman prsekolahan aq..
so skrg ni officially aq bkn murid skolah dah, tp still murid kepada kehidupan..
and sedih gak senanya..
dulu mls nk pkai baju skolah
*tp best gak sbnrny sbb baju skola sejuk dgn tudung labuh kalau tgh angin sepoi2 bahasa, rasa mcm air cond :D*
tapi skrg kn klula tetibe aq rindu nk pkai uniform skolah, aq dh xleh pkai dh..
nnt org kata pelik XD

4) spm

dlm byk2 psl 2013 ni mstila ade citer psl spm kan..
tbh spe yg x amik spm lg,
aq bgtau awal2,
spm ssh gler.. x de maknenye trial lg ssh dri spm..
spm mmg ssh like seriously..
so prepare awal2..
n jaga kesihatan..
aq mse second week tu,
teringin sgt nk minum air sejuk padahal aq sbnrny mmg x leh minum sejuk2,
nnt dtgla segala penyakit..
tp dh hbes spm ni aq minum je.. haha
pstu terus, migrain, batuk, selesema, sakit tekak,
mmg ssh gler nk bgun sbb kepala aq rse mcm kna hempap ngn batu..
first paper yg aq ambik mse sakit tu en,
addmath..
mlm tu aq mmg siyes x larat nk bgun..
aq baring je..
skali pukul satu kan..
aq tringat everyday aq skola smpi kul 4:30, pegi tusyen kul 5:15, blk 10:30 mlm..
blaja gle2..
skali sakit mse spm n result aq ke laut..
so pkul 1 tu aq bgun gak..
sakit pun sakitla..
aq study addmath smpai pagi x tdur sbb aq x brp igt formula smua kan..
yela seminggu spm fokus subjek lain je..
pastu smpai amik test x tdo lgsg..
tp xpela pape jd pun aq dh buat yg trbaik..
cme mse syariah mmg dh x larat sgt,
syariah plak paper esoknye..
aq dh mmg x larat so tdo je..
paper syariah mmg aq blh kata teruk gak..
tp pape pun doa kat Allah hrp ok je..
pstu next weeknye fizik kimia bio straight..
and aq x sihat lg..
mse bio plg teruk aq rse..
tp like i said pape pun doa..
pastu ade gap lamaaa bru pper last, barab..
mse tu alhamdulillah dh sihat..
and mse dh siap barab tu..
aq rse happy glerrr
like spm is over baby!!!
ble aq tles ni pun aq msih rse hype mse hbes spm hri tu.. :D
#SyurgaDunia

5) conclusion

hah to this point aq dh tak tau nk ckp ape sbb rse mcm byk sgt..
to conclude everything,
2013 ni aq byk belajar psl friendship and relationship ngn org..
and plg penting skali 2013 is like the turning point of my life..
like the transition from a teen to an adult..
so agak mencabar gak sbnrnye..
and i figured out a lot about myself this year..
which makes things more confusing..
tapi. confuse dgn cara yg baik..
like at least i know the other part of me now :)
i figured out that i have 2 personalities..
but not bipolar cuz both of them are me..
which is one.. i am one.. not two..
it just happened that the characteristics contradict each other because i am a contradict person :D
klu mood hyper, i'll become the extrovert side but if otherwise, otherwise lah..
camtu la lebih kurang..
haha so thats it for 2013..
byk lg nk tles but i think i'll just write it ble ade masa nnt..
oklah assalamualaikum :)

p/s: this is supposed to be posted yesterday tp tbe2 rmh blackout, so hri ni bru siap tles

.

it's been a dream and a plan..
that after spm is over,
before this year ends,
i got to wrapped up this year beautifully..
being as honest as i would..
as i believe that i will stay even if i'm gone..
sooner.
i will wrap it up..
i hope i will get the chances..
and end this beautifully

about life

well,
i guess life after spm isn't that fun..
there are too many things that you need to figure out since u've grown up..
and i dunno why,
it feels so heavy
it feels like a burden
i,
day by day
become more confused and lost

how could,
this world turns to become so vicious?
how could,
i suddenly realized that i dunno myself?
how could,
i lost to others?
how could,
at the end of the day i realized that i am useless?

i've went to utp's educamp recently.
and no doubt, it was really fun.
but,
meeting all those excellent people,
i felt very insecure and timid..
like how come,
for this 17 years that we live,
they've gained more than me?
they've grown up but i haven't?

it sucks..
tbh, im quite playful in every situation,
i don't adore seriousness
in every circumstances..
cuz seriousness sucks,
it makes people become stress,
it makes people dismiss others around them,
it makes the environment felt cold,
it makes me unhappy..

and i hate it..
but going through all this,
i realize that maybe being serious is important..
for me if i want to strive forward,
if i want to win,
if i want to be successful in life..
n i,
by any means need to grow up..
somehow,

hmmm...

WORRIES

ALL YOU NEED TO FEEL ENOUGH IS TO BE GRATEFUL

yuiop

so another blog post at night..
man i love posting at night,
when my mind is screwed up and all weary and this lil voice inside me saying,
hey i need a sleep..
but a wiser organ inside me saying,
man, this is not tiring enuf n u won't sleep if u lie down so,
force urself a lil bit more until u feel u can't take it anymore..
and i do understand that all my organs need a rest right now except mR.brainy who controls everything..
and when this guy doesn't want some rest,
i can't rest..

so when it's night,
i have to somehow,
force my brain to think spontaneously..
like i don't even care what it's thinking,
as long as it gets tired then i can go to sleep.

the thing is that,
i think i've been loving this whole kinda detective act..
like solving mystery cases..
well not so mystery but at least i cn solve it,
was really fun..
but nowadays,
i don't know..
i just prefer something more relax other than just solving n figure out problems..
i rather choose to be playful, doing things straight away rather than focusing on an issue or whateva..

and bcuz of tht,
my enthusiasm to dig out prob is not that much anymore..
eh wrong.
to solve a problem..
hmm..

man i'm tired..
night

Day 2 - bunny2

at first i was planning to tidy up my current room and my old room..
i need to move back to my old room since spm is over but.
i dunno maybe i'm too anxious about the rabbit that i just keep watching them..
i dunno whether it's a good thing or not..

i brought them outside at the open space this morning,
n saga seemed very happy n excited,
she kept going back n forth,
sniff and sniff..
so cute..

and lil rico also get excited..
it's just that he's more aggressive and hard to handle..
but he's nice tho..

today, i already brought them outside twice n i screwed up with rico every time..
and i feel sooo asdfghjklqwertyuiopzxcvbnm
and i decided not to visit them rarely after this cuz maybe i annoyed them..
idk..
maybe they need some space and i was too worried and it's just suffocating for them to have me messing their lives..
hmm..
i think so..
i just worried too much and gelabah pstu messed up...
i feel so done with life lollll

tp xpelah i love them..
it would be fun if they would love me too one day..
hmm i guess i need to chill a lil bit..

that's all for today..
bye

After SPM - day 1

so. officially. spm. is. over.
and i just couldn't describe what i'm feelin
i'm like god! byk gler bnda nk buat lps ni!!!
there are sooo many things that i wanna do before tp x dpt sbb time constriction..
so smlm finally, after 3 yrs x pakai inai sbb tkut kena demerit, i got to wear it! muahahaha..
and today...

kitorg satu kelas pergi mid valley!!!
tau tak it's very hard for my parents to let me hang out with my friends..
and today after pujuk pnye pujuk..
alhamdulillah dpt prgi..
pstu umi n adik2 pun ikut tp kitorg pisah2..
my mom n sis pergi shopping n i got to chill with ma friends..

and u just don't know what im feelin...
i'm just sooo grateful that this moment, the last one to spend with my buddies,
i got to be a part of it..
i'm sooo over the galaxy, moon and sun :DDD

and, aq kagum gler dgn putera2 ibs..
like seriously, hands down..
plg trbaik aq prnh kenal..
dgn semangatnye,
responsible..
bagus ah..
mmg ptut dipuji..

n aq dpt hadiah request pricey..
pstu xpayah bayar blk n im like...
o.m.g.
smpi skrg lg excited..
like, the thing yg aq mmg nakkkk sgt...
pstu dpt..
it's like dreams come true..
muahahaha thx idris :D

n tadi,
kitorg main boling..
aq smpi lmbt sket sbb mak aq krja..
tp lmbt x lmbt, asal dpt hang out ngn dorg pn aq dh brsyukur dah..

yg plg lawak skali,
aq ngn sarah main boling serentak,
sorg satu lane..
and...
serentak kitorg baling, serentak jugak dua2x masuk longkang..
blh kata hmpir smua yg kitorg baling msuk longkang..
nmpk x chemistry kt situ?
main boling pn same je..
dua2 ke longkang..
kuang3x..

pstu yb ngn atiqah plak power gler main..
atiqah, bak kata yb..
ada satu bola azimat ni..
klu atiqah baling je, konfem.
aq pun nk try tp x jadi..
memang sahla.. bola tu nk atiqah je baling..

last but not least,
makan2 with sarah, syra n my gossip girl, aina amirah,
aq rse kitorg pnye kecoh borak2x tu, satu kedai makan blh dgr..
smpi org yg kat hujung tu pun pndg2 je..
pstu pakcik yg lalu pun pndg..
huah. malu lol...

blk tu angah ckp, angah yg pkai earphone pun blh dgr suara along kuat..
agaknye.. simptom speaker masjid sarah dh berjangkit kt aq kut..
lolololll..

yelah..
lps ni mgkin speaker masjid dh x sme uni ngn aq..
so, aq knala practise jd speaker masjid spy x rindu sgt nnt :')

btw thx
fizah, sarah, farhah, nab2, yb, atiqah, nili,n yg lain2
cuz u made my day :)

hmm anyway,
i still have some times to spend with ma friends before we all terbang mmbawa diri..
so i gotta use it wisely and fill it with beautiful memories..
oyeah n i have a few plans for this loooong holiday but i just feel that it's not quite right to tell it first cuz maybe x jadi nnt..
so.. tgoklah mcm mana..
it's just tht
so far i'm SOOO GOOD :D

thts all.. byeeee :DD

Mush

The night is soo beautiful..
It is very quiet and calming..
Which allows me to give some space for this teeny tiny lil compartment in my brain to start functioning..
Bringing me to my right common sense..
All alone without anybody to judge, interrupt or influence my thought..
It's personally completely my thought..
I love it..

Sometimes life brings you to a point which makes you feel breathless, suffocating and drowning..
It is very tiring..
And on top of that, one thing that adds on to the mess is people thoughts..
I don't know..
Some people got along with it but it's different to me..
To me, it's neither entertaining nor amusing..
It just. Pale, dark and creepy..
Tbh, sometimes i feel like a whole different person when i meet people..
I feel that the space that they give me is too small for me to jump and accelerate as much as i want..
I feel caged and traped in a small lonely cold box..
It is for a matter of fact, the reason that i appear to be quiet and awkward..
Cuz i think people are streotyping too much and i just don't want to mess up so i keep myself silent..

It's a matter of fact, that if u see someone who are friendly, talk to people nicely and politely, it will come to ur mind that hey, that person is a very good person..
But when it comes to a person who messed up a lot, they usually dont like it.. Thus they always see the black of the white as if theres no good in that person..
And it's life.. Ppl always judge what they see, read and stuff..
Very few people in this world look beyond and upon, think wisely and say hey, we should not judge anybody as they maybe someone better than us but we just don't know it. Or maybe they hide their good acts cuz they r sincere ppl.. Who knows? Or maybe theres a reason y they hve done tht..
Who would thought abt this?
Very few i tell ya..
An analogy, ur driving a car, somebody drives like crazy and almost hit u..
What will come across ur mind?
I bliv most ppl wld say bad word, express their anger and stuff..
But has this ever came across ur mind?
No.1 - tht person has lost someone whom he loves and he just can't control his emotion..
No. 2 - his wife is giving birth and he needs to rush quickly
No. 3 - he troubles health problems, maybe hyper-activeness or nerve problems that leads to that act..
Have that ever come across ur mind?
Nope. Y? U bliv wht u see. U see somebody speeding and messed up. But u never want to understand that person.. And u dont want to care bcuz its not important to u..

Thats life..
Thats the people..
I messed up quite a lot and i hope ppl would try to understand that maybe there r something behind something that they dont know and just dont judge..
I mean come on.. Ppl nowadays judge like crazy like they r perfect..
They feel good making others feel bad..
And sometimes i wish i have this magic mirror when somebody judge someone that mirror will reflect back their action towards them..
Then life is fair.. Then u know how ur judgement is actually not fair even for urself..
Allah is the only one who can judge..
Y? He knows everything even the deepest heart desires and intentions..
And to people out there who loves judging,
U r just normal people that may or may not ruin ones life and character

P/s: i get lazy and didnt punctuate my words correctly.. It was on purpose

Kita

Sahabat tu.. Dia tlg satu sama lain..
Mguatkan yg lemah, mmbangunkn yg rebah..
Aq stress, x brp sihat kblkgn ni so byk x smpt bce..
Esk fizik, 3 pper..
Aq bgtahu dia,
Sgguh aq x brsedia!
Dia bg kata2 semangat, aq rse lega sdikit n brtmbh kuat..
Dia yg lain pula rse lemah, aq pula yg mmberikan kata2 smgt..
Ya. Inilah sahabat..
Hri ni aq sedar btp kita saling memerlukan satu sama lain..
Terima kasih sahabat..
Kerana sentiasa setia bersamaku..

P/s: esk pper fizik then kimia then bio non stop.. We really need ur prayers.. Doakn please #Hoping n #Trying

oh sejarah

mannn the next paper is sejarah!!
and i don't want to update my blog or whatever cuz i'm sitting for spm..
but while i'm waiting for azan to end,
i think i'll give it a go..
so i'm freaking out because i dunno why it's harder for me to memorize sejarah now..
i feel like asking somebody, hey how do u excel in sejarah/ do u have any tips?
but i'm like oh munierah dh dkt gler nak exam bru nk tnye..
so i guess i'll try my best..
i hope my brain is at it's best function cuz when it does, it works wonders..
aduhai.. seriously this is soooooooo creepy..
pray for us, the spm candidates whenever u remember us n u read this..
okaylah assalamualaikum

BBC - i wanna be a nerd

so currently i've been trying to add my knowledge by reading bbc..
and it was really fun except for the part that i don't understand certain words or the meaning of certain parts of the sentence.. *am i getting this right?*

i was trying to get help from everywhere like i posted it on our english group,debate group anything that i thought would get me some help.. if somebody who is good in english and not busy at the moment, i would totally ask him/her..
just i need to find the meaning..
it sometimes took ages..
what makes it most difficult..

anyway, on top of that, i began to love knowledge (Y)
haha i found it very surprising yet i feel some sorts of happiness and contentment reading all those stuffs..
i just.. idk..
i wanna be a nerd like seriously a total nerd knowing that there's so much that i don't know..
hahah..

sometimes i get bored n i just thought that i have to read one or two news from bbc before i sleep, i would totally opt for my favourite issue which is..

S.P.O.R.T

cuz...
tell me, who will get bored with sport??
usually i'll read about football only.. not other sports like golf or something.. heheh
i'm also interested in tennis world though since i'm a huge fan of maria sharapova and totally interested in matches between roger federer and rafael nadal..
be it there r other better tennis rivals, i just love the battles between these two guys.. hahah..

so that's pretty much it to babble tonight.. i think my grammar has worsen.. anyways
nighteee

see;

contentment

Pause pause

Oh man
Spm is rlly near n mom asked me to put a pause in everything that is not related to spm.. But the problem is,
a) i don't want to
b) i don't want to
c) i don't want to
I wanna go shopping n stuffs n i dunno whts wrong with me i just ughhh..
I want to study but i don't
I want to drill but i don't
So messed up i just don't want to sit fr spm
Wait. I want to but i just hope it will be fine n stuffs but i dunno yet cuz who knows so yeah..
N i lost my physics note book n i dunno whre i put it but i think smebody borrows it n doesn't return it to me but the problem is i dunno who n i think i nd to buy a new one so ugh again..
Gosh really hope i can hangout with my friends now, or studying normally n have fun without worrying about spm.. Like seriously learning with them is totally fun but when everything is abt spm it's not.. It turns to be rushy and serious n i just pass the time with sleeping bcuz i don't want to think or do anything abt it..
N im lost now.. I think i just i dunno

Review on: Majalah Jom!

Today one of my tablemates brought this interesting small magazine called jom!
It is really cute and the cover is awesome!! They got this lil cute guy from 'up' movie and i just can't resist to read it..
Besides, it's been quite a while since i'm searching for good magazines which are totally my cup of tea.. And this one got lots of islamic content which is totally a plus for me and the way it was written just blown me away!
And u know what.. As i started to read it i just immediately got immersed in it.. Like, everybody please don't disturb me.. I'm having my moments.. :DDDD
Mannn it's soooo good!!!

So i decided to do a review on it!

1st: Thought

Generally, i think jom! is definitely a must have for everybody, it is small, easy to carry and it is a light reading material which u can read at all circumstances even before u sleep, in the train, at the hospital and etc..
The content is also interesting and i am really amazed by the illustrations provided.. So fresh and beautiful!

2nd: Some sneak peek from jom!

(1)

"Apabila Allah mengkehendaki kebaikan pada seseorang, maka Allah akan 'memperkerjakannya'."
Lalu para sahabat bertanya: "Bagaimanakah Allah 'memperkerjakannya'?"
Baginda menjawab: "Allah akan memberinya taufik untuk melakukan amal soleh, kemudian Allah mencabut nyawanya dalam keadaan demikian."
(HR AT-TIRMIDZI)
*subhanallah.. Bestnye klu kita tergolong dlm golongan tu kan?

(2)

"walaupun doeramon datang dari masa hadapan dan memberitahu jawapan bagi soalan SPM, anda tidak akan mampu mendapat straight A jika Allah x izinkan"

(3)

Bila seseorang itu tenggelam dalam kemaksiatan, dia akan tenggelam dalam kelemahan iman
"Dan musibah apa pun yang menimpa kamu adalah kerana perbuatan tanganmu sendiri, dan Allah memaafkan banyak (dari kesalahan-kesalahanmu)"
as-syura:30

3rd: Wrap it up!

So guys.. The conclusion is..
If u never read this then u should totally go to the nearest bookstore NOWW and purchase it! cuz u know what..
This small little mag just contains abundance of knowledge and insight about life, religion and current issues that happening in our muslim world.. Just like u got everything in it and it's really3x fascinating i tell ya..

4th: oopss forgot.. Comparison

So just a lil bit on comparison,
Usually other mags provide lots of facts from page to page..
Like it just purely facts without good wordings..
Which i am so not going to read every single one of it.. Cuz i get bored easily..
But this one has short and compact facts with interesting stories.. N I just.. Awhh i'm in love with it

5th: Rating!

I rate this magazine with 9.8 out of 10 marks
So guys.. That's it for today.. Thanks for reading! Assalamualaikum :)

my lil angah has grown up :')

Ohoi..
Lmenye aq x update..
Ahwell sbnrny aq dh ape a.. Mcm insaf skitla..
n i restrain myself from twitter hahah..
yelah i wanna avoid bnda yg sia2..
so it kinda helps me to focus on my study a lil tbh..
xdela tiap mse nk scroll tl kn..
it's greatlah so far..
and aq rse hidup aq pun mkin ok alhamdulillah..

oh n angah is hving pmr now n idk y but i feel like awhh my baby sister has grown up.. :')
mcm x caye.. dh besar dh adik aq ni..
n maybelah most of the time ppl thought tht i look more immature than her but she's still my lil sis that i used to protect when i was a child n always will when she needs me.. insyaAllah..
Now, my lil sis has grown up so well n become very beautiful n intelligent n i'm really really glad abt that..
we used to fight a LOT back then.. mse kecik lah n haha i always membebel like mak nenek when arguing with her.. cuz thts me lol..
n she'll scream with her serak basah voice *dulu serak basah mcm ramli sarip sbb dia ske nangis* n the most common fight between us was the pulling-hair fight..
awhh i miss those moments when i always became the champion lol.. now she's stronger than me lah cuz somehow i am like u know not very tall XD
oh btw we still have a video of us berebut katil mse kecik lol..

we always spend our time together dri kecik smpai besar..
going to the same tourney, camp etc..
even the moment when i started to have a memory is when i was walking with her..
i remembered walking to our nenek's house which is just behind our house *dulu dduk kt kmpg* and suddenly it's like pap n everything becomes clearer n thts when i discovered that i have my memory :D
*don't question this.. it's my life fact*
so i don't remember a single thing about being alone or anything..
i always have her besides me in my memory..
n when she's small i like to make up stories to scare her..
now that she has grown up n discovered all that i feel powerless lol..

n pagi td while walking together entering the school..
i wished her the best n while we got separated when we went our own ways i just..
idk i felt relieved n touched tht my baby sis has grown up but at the same time i also felt nervous tht she's going to sit for pmr.. like omg i really hope ur going to chill n just rock the questions..
n she seemed chill it just that im nervous.. for her lol..
idk wht is tht
but it's mixed feelings..
weird huh?

anyway i'm just glad tht we all have grown up in a good way n all those childhood memories are just beautiful sometimes i don't even realize that i am this old hahah..
it feels like it just yesterday that i make up stories and taught her nonsense things.. and it's really funny when she laughed because she thinks wht she did is really good while it actually isn't cuz i lied to her n she trusted me hahah.. kids time biasalah..

hmmm
time flies so fast, we all have grown up yet we are still kids at heart :')

p/s: plg best mse kecik was when i made a mistake, got caught then i lied pastu angah yg kena marah.. but she was soo innocent she didn't say a word n accept the punishment willingly.. hehehe srry sis XD

p/s2: i just asked mom to correct my grammar on this post n she said: tp masa kecik along xdelah nmpak nakal..
n i was like: well.. it's because i'm 'that' good :P

getting scolded

this morning, mom was not in a good mood..
and as usual my sisters fought at the table during breakfast..
mom was pissed off and we got scolded..
each of us..
to be honest..
i did have those hard-feelings..
but then,
i dunno why..
i feel some sort of happiness and relieved..
that i finally got scolded..
i feel happy that finally mom tells me to do what's right..
i feel happy that finally mom wants me to be a better person..
idklah.. it's weird right?

before this,
mom was a lil bit busy since she got promoted..
and she tried her best to spend her time for us if she could..
she would buy most of the things that we asked because she said she feel sorry for those times that she can't spend with us..
and tbh it's great to have new clothes, new tudung and stuffs..
but i just dunno why.. i don't feel happy..

day by day i think i become more ungrateful for what we have right now and asked for more..
and more..
and still, i never feel satisfied..
but today..
when mom told us how hard she works just to make sure that our needs is fulfilled ...  and how we all just acted like a king, keep asking for things and did nothing than keep complaining..
i just feel like it's a wake up call..
i know it sounds lame..
but for such a long time..
i've been blinded with all these luxury, i never really appreciate what mom and dad did for us..
i just keep asking for things i forgot how hard actually they tried to grant my wish..
and when she mentioned all those things..
somehow i feel relieved and realize how spoiled and ungrateful i was..

all in all.. i just feel relieved that i still got the chances to mend things..
it's good to know my mistakes..
it's good to know that it's not too late to change..

thanks for scolding me, mom :)

p/s: n oyeah she took our handphone too.. and it's kinda boring now but meh maybe it's the best for us ;)

Quizzass

Pagi ni aq determined gler nk cri bku koko *sbnrny aq xnk dtg skolah*
Pastu aq pun niat nk dtg lmbat skit skolah sbb bku koko dh kna hntr esok..
So aq nk cri smpai jumpalah klu x hmm kosonglah markah aq..
Then cari punya cari xde gak..
Dlm pkul 8 lebih tu aq pun nk pergi skolah..
Skali teringat hri ni ad pelawat..
So demi mnjaga nama baik maahad..
Aq pun x jd dtg pagi tu..
Aq nk dtg petang skit lps hbis kls utk join kls tmbhn..
So xdela aq trserempak ngn pelawat ke ape..
Yelah aq xnak diorg tgok perangai pelajar maahad yg buat skolah mcm skolah moyang mereka sendiri walaupun hakikatnya itulah yg aq lakukan..
Tapi.. Aq kan sayang maahad..
Xnaklah krn aq sorg trcemar identiti skolah..
Har har har..
Pstu aq pun smpi2 skolah then join kls tmbahan BI..
N kitorg main quiz!!!
Series best gler!!!
Aq rse tulah antara kelas BI plg best thn ni..
Tp gentle la farhah plg semangat..
N thts one of the reason kitorg muncul Juara!!
Farhah pnye semangat tu, belum tc smpat pilih dia lg dia dh ckp jwpn..
Mmg swag glerlah.. Hahaha
Tp bestlah.. Aq rse semangat competitive bersaing ngan kwn2 tu mmg best..
Pastu yg plg bestnya ble tgok kwn2 yg pendiam pun jd excited n brsemangat nk jwb quiz..
Siap ad yg mcm dh nk brdebat dah..
X sgka tul korg ni.. Klh aq.. Haha..
Seronoklah blaja camni..
Fun n dia mcm mncungkil inner side smua org..
Nmpaklah bler dh smgt tu, mcm2 trkeluar..
So thts it i think..
Actually im rlly looking forward to this kind of learning session in the future..
It builds up confidence, creates a healthy competition among students n it is fun!
So the conclusion is, elect me for malaysia next education minister kay? Salam :D

Mereka - room 4

Td last kls ngn member2 room 4..
Sedih x yah ckp ah..
It's too heart-wrenching i cannot cry..
Sedihnya nk lpskn smua org..
Wlupun aq mgkin x rapat sgt ngn diorg smua..
Tp aq syg every single one of them..
I feel like they are my family..
Rse seronok je dkt iu dgn diorg smua..
Farizah my bff..
Twins diana n nadia my sweet besties..
Aqilah my two yrs classmate + bff..
Gon clever jessian..
Sofiya admath genius..
Hazirah our sweetheart..
Azizul - who blivs tht physics is all abt logic
Hazman the joker
Arif n afiq which i cannot differentiate :D
Najihah our new buddy..
Qaid - hazman's best friend
Iqbal is like our respectful leader
Danial our new kid
Fitri my ex schoolmate
Farisha the beautiful one..
N of course cgu fana yg comel, cgu alia yg cool+caring gler, cgu dayah yg sgt baik hati, cgu midi, cgu anep, cgu azwan..
Every single of them means so much to me..
I wish that i could freeze the time n stay forever young with them..
But hey, life goes on :(
Haish..
Ni belum lg hbes skolah..
Knpalah hidup ni msti ad prtemuan n prpisahan?
Sedih tau tak..
Apa2 pun.. aq doakan smg kita smua dpt straight A+ dlm spm.. aminnnn :')