Tuesday, June 28, 2016
mine is not big,
i keep it simple and short-termed.
but still there are times when things don't happen that instantaneously,
i have one goal that i have been dreaming of since i entered degree,
but it still seems like a long journey to reach that,
and sometimes, the clock is ticking and there is zero improvement on that road,
so, what i did was that i grabbed other opportunities that came along the way and tried to explore other optional things that maybe, i am capable of.
but i never forget that one dream,
and whenever i think about it,
i pat my shoulder and say, keep walking.
because i think i shouldn't limit my option on one thing,
say, if i don't get that thing, that doesn't mean i should grieve or consider myself as a failure.
i should just keep on exploring other things and maybe one day Allah will put me back on that path and i can achieve my dreams
and i also bear in mind that,
by time, we will finally get what we want,
with a condition that requires patience and wait.
it just won't happen,
because it is not what Allah has planned for us and therefore, we should just be grateful and happy with the other blessings that He gave us.
so it is all a matter of time,
whether it's going to happen or not.
thus, the most important thing is to keep walking.
because if i think too much of what i don't have and stop grabbing other opportunities,
i wouldn't get to the point where i discover whether or not i was still meant for that thing,
and i will also lose other opportunities that come along.
so what i wanna do now is,
keep my choice open,
let time work things out and keep walking.
Sunday, May 29, 2016
and i'm not in the list untuk stay kolej. #MunierahGotSackedOut
but it's okaylah. gonna work on that later.
anyhow, i'm soooo glad to finish my firstyear cuz i've been looking forward for more things in the future #IAlwaysLookForMore #AndExpectMoreGreatThings
and i am also happy that we got the 2 months break YAYS
a lot of things happened and to give it a thought,
i think i have new perspectives on things as i grow older #ObviouslyLahKan #LifeChangesPeople
i think it's great to be in a different kind of environment,
meet different types of people,
and whether you like it or not,
you gotta learn, to deal with it.
and by saying 'deal with it', means, you gotta deal with is in THE BEST possible way.
anything that you can think of lah.
4 tahun yang sekejap ni, akan determine your future.
no matter how talented and intelligent you are,
manners and relationships still matter,
after this ends,
you will again meet the people you used to look up to, or look down to,
and they might be above you or lower than you,
the point is that,
1) life is like a roller coaster, sometimes ur up there and the next day everything's gone and u'll be at the rock bottom. so take good care of your relation with people as much as you can because at the end of the day, you never know who's going to be there to help you. islam pun ada cakap hablumminallah wa hablumminannas. (emphasizing how important it is to take care of your relationship)
pun begitu, kalau antara lelaki perempuan, mestilah ada batas and x perlu terlalu rapat.
2) the world doesn't evolve around you. sometimes we thought the world needs us or we only think about ourselves that we forget that we are tiny midgets that might turn out to be nothing eventually at the end of the day. and the world doesn't even need us. if one day we're gone, they'll replace us. therefore, stay humble cuz whatever it is man, we all are replaceable. okay maybe not to certain close people, but if we don't take care of their hearts, then sooner, we won't matter to them anymore.
3) still, act wisely (i'll leave this one here for you to figure out yourself)
basically thts only a teeny tiny bit antara banyak benda yang i belajar masa degree satu tahun ni. and i try to bear that in mind cuz oh man, as you grow up, it becomes harder to practice all those things. but beringat2lah demi masa depan yang sejahtera, cuz we never know.
guess that's all! take care people!
Sunday, May 15, 2016
Of the unavoidable thoughts,
The urge of running away,
A sleep would put a stop to all of these.
But why couldn't i have it when i need it the most.
Just talking to someone about all these creeping thoughts
About that person who scares me
About that person that ive fallen in love of since 2014
So small, so little, but still matters.
Would at least make me feel secure.
You guys are the most comfortable to be around with.
Are the closest definition of home,
Where when i reside, im no longer searching for home
Saturday, May 7, 2016
The moment she told me that.
My heart breaks.
She then texted me, are you okay?
i said yes, of course, but the truth is tears are rolling down my cheeks.
and i realize, that is the moment when.
my heart breaks,
and it's not your fault,
cuz i break it on my own.
it feels like i've been stabbed,
certain things do need time,
and this one too, needs time to heal.
i better be careful next time.
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
Friends would make me happy.
They did. But finally, they go away
If my dreams and imaginations come true,
I would be happy.
But more and more i think about it, more and more unrealistic it appears to be.
How long must it take for me to earn enough to be able to feel happy and what if Allah loves me and takes my breath away?
Then i am never happy on earth because i haven't lived the life that would make me happy.
They did. Tremendously. But then i become too proud that i took all the credits to my own.
And then He took it away, so that i learn,
That without His approval,
I am a nobody.
I found happiness.
In these small-small little things in life.
The kind of things that nobody would highlight in conversations,
The kind of things that nobody would want to brag about.
Because they are small and sometimes, not tangible.
It is weird.
But they make me feel happy in and out.
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
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Monday, January 11, 2016
And when the migraine kicks.
There's no 1 or 2, or knocks at the door.
It just comes, uninvited, unexpected and stings like a bee.
Not sure really about the cause.
Sometimes chest pain hits hard too.
But i can still have all my common stimuli works so i dont really make noise about it.
Inhaler comes very efficiently during those days. That is something i'm sure about.
But this migraine. I'm really worried.