Friday, August 31, 2012


I love being patriotic... Hey man i might be a teenager but that doesn't mean that i won't care about my country, place where i was born.

I feel proud because i'm a Malaysian. I don't want to get to politic coz politic and patriotic is way a different thing. How? because even if we vote for different party, we can still be patriotic.. it doesn't matter coz i bliv everybody has their own opinion and way of view to make their choice for our government. But then we were born in the same country so no matter whether u r pas, mca or bn, we can still feel patriotic and celebrate this independence day together...

But then, what is so good about this independence day?
To me, it reminds me on how hard our armies had fight for us back then .. Their bloodshed and tears.. all into count..  Imagine if they still alive, believe me, they won't like to see the youngsters nowadays waste their young time to do useless things, become addicted to drug or what so ever. But, they would like to see this independence that they've fought for is worth it. They fought for us, the future generation, hoping that we can live better than them... Which means that we can improve in all aspects, not just from the aspect of intellectual , science and technology but then also from the aspect of morality because that is the one thing that they, the old ones have but we don't.

What is the difference?
People back then, they would sacrifice their live, their soul for their beloved nation which is Malaysia.. They won't never ever put Malaysia in a risky condition or betray their own nation.. But nowadays we can see that bribery is everywhere, people betrayed their own nation for money, people put their nation in harm for their own sake.. And that is heart-breaking! Because ones may got away with money and stuff but look to the impacts that they've left.. Bad things will leave marks.. Now, we cannot even trust people since there are so many crimes that have been reported, we feel insecure because our country is not safe anymore. The value of morality has totally decreases and what left for us are selfish people.. People who only care about their pleasures and never think of their future generation. That is the thing that happen nowadays.. and know what? we have the power to change it! change our attitude, be proud of our country, be sincere in your duty and all... we need to change our current status quo..

I wish one day, kids can go out and play happily without feeling insecure like nowadays..

Btw i have read interlok and bukit kepong.. guess what? i love both of them whole-heartedly.. so, i think maybe u nd to read them too.. coz it feels so real n it reminds u of those hard days where people sacrifice themselves, their family for their country...

if u don't like to read then watch patriotic movies.. i heard that bukit kepong is kinda good so give a try! ;)

read more abt bukit kepong incidents here =)

Im proud of them!

List of killed in action (KIA)


  1. Sergeant 3493 Jamil Mohd Shah (Bukit Kepong police chief)
  2. Corporal 7068 Mohd Yassin Haji Wahab
  3. Lance Corporal 7168 Jidin Omar
  4. Police Constable (PC) 3933 Hamzah Ahmad
  5. PC 5674 Abu Mohd Ali
  6. PC 7493 Muhamad Jaafar
  7. PC 7862 Abu Kadir Jusoh
  8. PC 8600 Jaafar Hassan
  9. PC 9136 Hassan Osman
  10. Extra Police Constable (EPC) 3475 Mohd Top Lazim
  11. EPC 3795 Jaafar Arshad
  12. Marine Constable (MPC) 60 Ibrahim Adam
  13. MPC 68 Awang Ali
  14. MPC 181 Basiron Adam

[edit]Auxiliary Police (AP) were killed in action (KIA) outside police station

  1. AP Redzuan Alias
  2. Embong Lazim
  3. Koh Ah Cheng

[edit]Non-combatants (Auxiliary Police (AP))

  1. Ins. Kudarina Naknok
  2. AP 2130 Samad Yatim
  3. AP Mahmood Saat
  4. AP 1925 Ali Akop
  5. AP 2127 Othman Yahya

[edit]Police family members

  1. Fatimah Yaaba - wife of Marine Constable Abu Bakar Daud
  2. Hassan Abu Bakar - son of Marine Constable Abu Bakar Daud
  3. Saadiah - wife of Constable Abu Mohd Ali
  4. Simah Abu - daughter of Constable Abu Mohd Ali

[edit]List of survivors


  1. PC 10533 Othman Yusoff
  2. MPC 37 Abu Bakar Daud
  3. EPC 3472 Ahmad Khalid
  4. PC 7645 Haji Yusoff Rono (died on 14 April 2005)
Note: All officers are deceased

[edit]Police family members

  1. Mariam Ibrahim - widow of Constable Muhamad Jaafar
  2. Zainun Muhamad - daughter of Constable Muhamad Jaafar
  3. Abu Samah Muhammad - son of Constable Muhamad Jaafar
  4. Zaleha - daughter of Constable Muhamad Jaafar
  5. Jamilah - daughter of Marine Constable Abu Bakar Daud
  6. Hussain - son of Marine Constable Abu Bakar Daud
  7. Fatimah Abdul Manan @ Timah Lawa - widow of Constable Hassan Osman
  8. Pon Khalid - widow of Marine Constable Awang Ali
  9. Fatimah Tuani - widow of Constable Hamzah Ahmad
  10. Edmund Ross Williams Hunt - orang asli who worked as a mountain guide at Bukit Kepong

Monday, August 27, 2012


true enough tht sometimes we tell other ppl stories about other person sbg alasan konon2x nk bncg n nk dptkan pndangan.. but the problem is that what is our real intention??

sbb dlm islam mmglah mengumpat tu dibenarkan dlm beberapa situasi contohnya utk mncari jalan penyelesaian dan sbgainya..

tp klu kita tgok skrg ni,, apabila kita brbincang, selalunya akan ad adegan kutuk-mengutuk dan kdg2x trheret sekali nama org lain dlm prbincangan trsebut sekali gus mmbuka keaiban mereka... Klaulah kita kata inilah cara yg islam benarkan, konfem2x kita dah terpesong lg terseleweng..

Sbb apa?? sbb dalam islam sndiri Allah melarang sekeras-kerasnya kita membuka keaiban org lain..

the truth is, x payah nk  bncg dgn ramai org pun.. kdg2x brbincang dgn sorg pun dh cukup untuk selesaikn masalah tu.. Tp syaratnya,, kita tgok dulu dgn siapa kita nk brbincang...

Kalau betul niat kita nk mmperbaiki si fulan trsebut dan nk berbincang dahulu dgn org lain,, nak mnx pndapat dan sbgainya, sudah semestinya kita akan mncari mereka yg benar2x layak untuk memberi nasihat.. mungkin kerana mereka dh byk mkn garam dlu.. atau lebih brilmu.. dan satu lagi, mereka yg kita nk cerita ni, haruslah org yg kita percaya bukanlah seorg yg suka mndedahkan keaiban org lain.. sbb tujuan brtanya atau brbincang bukanlah utk mnjadikan cerita itu sensasi atau diheboh-hebohkan di khalayak ramai.. tapi tujuannya adalah untuk mnutup keaiban org itu sebaik mgkin dan mncari jalan penyelesaian yg terbaik utk diorg..

Recheck balik setiap kali kita nk menyebut nama org lain dlm prbincangan kita tu.. adakah sekadar suka2x?? cakap kosong?? atau sekadar gosip?? sebab kalau kerana alasan2x berikut confirm2x haram dalam islam sbb mngumpat itu bkn dosa yg ringan tapi sangatlah BERAT..

kita tanya balik, adakah si fulan yg kita nk ajk brbincang ni mampu memberi pandangan yang terbaik dari sudut islam dan adakah selepas berbincang dengan dia, masalah ini mampu diselesaikan..

sebab secara jujurnya, apa gunanya sebuah perbincangan tanpa penyelesaian.. betul tak??
sbb itulah, pstikan kita betul2x teliti dalam mmbicarakan mgenai hal2x mgenai org lain..
cthnya, dgn siapa nk bncang, wajarkah disebut nama si fulan yg brsalah trsebut dan sbgainya..

akhir kalam,biarlah kita brusaha keras untuk mnjaga agama kita drpd kita memperlekehkan hukum hakamnya dan akhirnya kita tidak mendapat redhaNya..

wassalam :)

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Aidilfitri - The Truth.

It's raya!! finally we've made it soo far and Alhamdulillah we got to meet raya..
I feel blessed that He still give me the chance to rejoice and celebrate this noble month with my relatives and friends..
but the truth is, I miss ramadhan..
coz this year,, ramadhan feels very special to me..
it solves most of my question.. gives me a new sight to the world..
i dunno.. it just did..
the thing is,, it's over..
now it's syawal and for me it's unfair if i didn't enjoy my syawal as much as i enjoy ramadhan since syawal is also a gift from Allah to me..

by the way,
spending time back at our village is ah-mazing!!
seriously it's like kids convention here.. too many of them n sometimes it's breath-taking when they got their feet.. u know what i mean :D

it just that
this raya, we laugh, smile, chat and have fun all the way.. like the typical raya..
but it feels wrong here, when it comes to our brothers' and sisters' celebration out there..
i don't even call it a celebration.. because,,
it's terrible and horrible, what else? name it.. all the bad stuff..
they don't even have the chance to celebrate raya at all.. in fact, they are busy running for their lives, fighting for ISLAM..
and the truth is we don't even care about them...
we are selfish..
we just enjoy and have fun all day long and we forgot to pray for them.. at least..

these people out there,, they lost ones who they love every day..
they don't even have the same chance like us..
while others are worshiping in ramadhan,, they run.. run for their live..
while others meet relatives and tighten their bonds, they lost 'that bond' everyday..
sometimes they just cannot even care about that bond coz most of them are gone.. gone forever..

look! see! observe!

5 times a day,
we pray,
but we forgot them..

supposedly, we, as muslims shouldn't be selfish..we should feel the pain that our brothers and sisters are having..
we should pray for them.. we should remember them in every prayer that we made..

see what they are having now.. :'(

1) Rohingya

The buddhist 
They are human just lke us yet they've been treated lke slaves :(

Muslims in rohingya praying :'(

2) Syria

Imagine this is ur hometown..

Imagine that body is ur sis :'(

-pray, never underestimate the power of dua'.. that's the least we can do :(

Tuesday, August 14, 2012


peeps, who say we need to improve ourselves only when it's ramadhan?? we can do this peeps.. we can change and improve no matter it's syawal, muharam or rejab.. because if you really want to change, you will!! you won't wait for other factors to come.. such as ramadhan, wake up call or what-so-ever that you called it..

so, although ramadhan is almost over for this year..
but there're still a few things that i want to change and improve on myself... so,, here it is:

#1 Tidur siang --> i don't want to sleep lepas subuh n after zuhur.. usually i got tired easily and just fall asleep but after this, i want to minimize my sleep :)

#2 Consistency --> i always have problems with consistency.. but after this, im going to jot down my daily activities and follow it whole-heartedly.. heheh :D

#3 Structure --> I want to be more structured. I guess being structured in life will help me with the structure in my speech too :O

#4 Put things in the right place --> Since kak donah is not around, i want to keep my room and stuff tidy. The easiest way is by putting things in the right place. #simple ^o^

#5 Moody --> I need to train myself to control my mood well.. so, i'll try my best to be positive about everything :DD

so this is my list.. what's yours?? do one! you'll be more excited to do it when you have a list or a checklist :D
btw keep consistent with your deeds in ramadhan okay?? Assalamualaikum :)

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

PersonThatInspireMe #1 : Amira

I don't like to smile..
Eventhough it's a sunnah,, i don't find any reason y shld i smile..
but then when i enter maahad..
i met this girl..
this weird girl..
every time u walk wth her, u'll realize tht every single person tht passes u will smile..
it's awkward for me to smile to anonymous..
but it's not for her..
as it's a sunnah,,
she smiles to everyone..
but of course not to boys..
she even told me once ago..
when we all are the naive form 1 students..
she was soo cheerful when she arrives at the school gate and saw a boy prefect,,
she smiled at him but he looked surprise and turn away..
tht time, she felt weird..
but when we learn about how shld the relationship btween boys n girls be..
we changed..

basically tht's wht we do in maahad..
we grow up and change for good.. i guess?? xD

so this girl teaches me to enjoy life and at least smile..
ur smile might seems small to you but it can bring big impact on others..
just as u wish ppl will smile to u,,
then smile to ppl!!

thx Allah for giving me the chance to meet this awesome girl called Amira :)

p/s:will keep posting abt other ppl later :DD

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Me happy :)

Just updated my blogskin and found this cute panda in front of my house..
Me so happy :)

Sunday, August 5, 2012


this is my last tournament for this year..
I didn't expect anything impressive since i know tht i'm not tht good..
At first,
i was stuck to mke my decision..
whether i shld go or not..
whether it'll be worth it or not..
coz it's been held during our exams week..
luckily it's on the weekends sooo
i kinda can give reason to my dad..
coz he dislikes the fact tht i left mny classes  for co-curriculum act..
yet, i didn't score well..
besides i'm totally not a type of person who sits n spend their time on every single subj..
i prefer learning in class tgether with friends :)

plus, recently,,

i'm suck at admath n i cannot guarantee tht i'll get above fail...
coz when i try to answer the questions..
suddenly i forgot the formulas..
i didn't do tht much exercise tho..
so,, what happens, happens..
after this i'll try my best..

but after sme discussions..
then i feel like going to ukm..
then i made my decision n go..

then in UKM-IV,,
i didn't expect tht i'll feel happy in every single round..
my debate bfore is kinda like stressing..
but this is totally different..
in fact it's great!!

i m grateful tht fakhry said tht he don't care whether we win or lose..
n tht makes me feel a lil bit relieved..
coz usually in comp,
i don't like the idea of winning..
seriously dunno how to explain tht..
but when you target to win,, u'll lose the joys in the debate itself..
maybe after winning u'll feel great..
n u r not feeling happy bcoz of the debate itself..
but, because u just win..
tht's it..

and for me, winning is pressuring..
i hate the fact when i didn't do rlly well n i feel like a burden to the team..
but in ukm-iv..
when i didn't do rlly well,,
fakhry said it's okay.. n i can do it for the nxt round..
it makes me feel fine..and i try to give my best..
if i lose, i hve nothing to worry coz fakhry doesn't care about losing or winning..
but he'll teach me a better way to deliver a good speech/ bcome a good debater..

and that's great..
and today,,,,
i have great supporters coming!!
and i feel really enlighten bcos of the supports!!
i met maryam, kamalia, fattah, n kak raihan..
and they cheers for us..
and i feel really GREAT!!

but then still i really really want to see fattah n kamalia debating..
maybe one day..
i'll be waiting for tht day coz i think they're a rlly good team..

btw there're lots of things tht i learnt here..
and mostly that debate is not about winning..
and you'll never know until u experience it..
that feeling of joy when u r debating without the intention to win..

it feels great,, no matter what happens..
and that's something tht is rarely happened in debate or my previous comp..
which makes me feel tht debate is kinda pressuring..

and mannn i'm not good in handling pressure.. ><"

soo at the end of the day...
i feel blessed to get this opportunity..

thx to Allah for giving me this chance to feel happy and gained experience in this short life..
thx to my parents for giving me permissions..
thx to fakhry for being patient with me, paying for this comp, and mostly bcoz of ur noble intention to train us to bcome a better person.. May Allah bless you and grant ur wishes in life..
thx to my sis for being our loyal supporter everyday!!
ths to kamalia, fattah, maryam n kak raihan for cheering n supporting us..

one day,,
when we've bcome a better person, i hope we'll reunite again..
insyaAllah ^^