it turns upside down, back and forth, move to thousand directions you'll never know which r u heading for..
one day u'll be aiming harvard,
the other day u wake up and realize tht ur not there, ur in a local university instead..
thing just happen like tht,
u got good offers but ur mom ask u to stay with her so u hve to reject the opportunities..
it is a typical thing in life that it is full of surprise,
sometimes it's too much until u feel breathless..
too much things getting mixed up ur sight becomes blurry..
i got this scenario as a typical teenager when people start admiring certain type of person because they have an outstanding personality, bold than the other people.
they admire a person like that person is perfect,
nobody touches *pearson (example) and everybody will stand for what *pearson believe in
then they make comparisons and stuffs
and at that moment,
i start to get immerse in their thoughts that everybody should become like *pearson..
*pearson is a rule-breaker, #cool *to them
*pearson do whatever *pearson thinks is right
but i don't really like to do that stuff so i stop hearing what people say and think for a moment.
i want to listen to my own voice.
and for a moment i discover the fact that becoming urself is the true freedom in life
u don't have to act like u care if u don't
and the most important is, ur not living a fake life
people tht got along with you are the ones who really loves you for who you are,
they are the one whom,
have seen the true you, good and bad sides, and they choose to stay with you.
they are the one whom,
survived their life with you yet they regret nothing about having you on their side,
whatever happens, stay with ones who are loyal to you..
you don't need to get everybody's approval that you are the one that they like/admire and so on..
you don't even need people to tell you what you should become..
you decide on what you want in life and find reasons why you do certain things..
because, when you got reason for your act, they just can't bother you..
and the world cannot deny what you're doing..
and the most important thing is,
you know why you are still believing in what you are believing right now.. because you have a reason for it
just live ur life right by becoming urself,
u have nothing to regret
p/s: some people love to live fake life, they want everybody to become fake because under their paradigm, it's cool. but think man think. why you do this, why you become this. don't be fool by ones thoughts :)