Wednesday, April 25, 2012

fUtuRe~


hye hey hoe...
guys,, it's farewell for me n this blog..and my twitter and my facebook... sob sob (gedikksss)
arghhh i can't believe i've said this...
but u know what??
i am thinking about my future...
i want to be a smart girl..
i want to have great future, great job, great results...
everything... 
it's not that i'm tooooooo smart..
it just that if we think about our future n really think about it,
we will do our best in learning and insya Allah we'll get great achievements..
and i'm not a person who always try my best in everything..
it just that i always dream of great future..

with knowledge,
you can do many things..
i mean soooo many...
u can preach people,
u can relate ur knowledge with ur life...
many things dear,,
that's what i want to be..
i don't want to be passive people..
just doing chores without knowing what's happening...
also cannot do anything about something wrong coz they r NOBODY...
i want to be SOMEBODY...
MEANINGFUL AND WISE~

straight to the point...
nak idle jap dri fb, twiter n blog ni..
bcoz diorg ni bknnye priority aq..
i have bigger responsibility..
which is to fulfill my dream n ambition..
skrg ni aq cam dh matang sket an??
sob sob terharu.. :D
yela.. aq nk tgok mak ayah aq bangga..
n bile aq capai sesuatu kejayaan tu..
mak ayah aq akan kata... that's my daughter.. ^^
plus aq nk buktikan.. al-islamu yu'la wala yu'la alaih..
aq nk jadi org islam yg hebat cam ibnu sina... 
aq nk menyumbang byk utk islam..
hey,,, aq x ckp kosong...
i really want to prove it..
biarlah amik mase pun... usaha kan tangga kejayaan..
drpd aq buang masa ter'distract' dgn dunia...
lagho n x kekal...
baik aq tumpukan masa dpn aq, bnda yg lebih ptg..
krana sekiranya seseorg muslim itu memikirkan masa depan,
dia turut terfikirkan mati...
dan mrk yg plg pandai ialah mrk yg tlh mmbuat persediaan utk mati...

okaylah blog cantekkkk....
last post sblum aq idle....
nnt hbis periksa prtghn thn aq update blik...
nnt aq brsihkan sawang2x yg ade...
Assalamualaikum guys, may Allah bless you! ;)


Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Aq X cOOL~


I'm sorry,,
i'm not a cool person...
tht's what i tell ppl when they see me being clumsy..
i just cannot be cool.. 
why?? coz there's so many things in my mind..
n i cannot be cool or calm when i need to solve tht things..
i think tht if one day i have to handle a class occasion n i am soo stress..
i'll turn everybody n everything upside down.. ^ v 
what a horror...
kan?? but the thing is that
i got COOL friends...
i mean TOO COOL...
when i'm clumsy n seem like an insane..
they'll say.. rileks mun.. breath in.. breath out..
LOL! i love them...
sometimes they ask me what to do..
and they lend a hand..
how LUCKY am i?? kan??

as i grow up,,
i realize that Allah knows me well..
of course He knows because He created me right??
i just feel cared when He arrange the best things for me...
1st,
He knows tht i'm a weak person...
He sends ppl that give wake up call for me.. (which is hard for me to accept if the comments is harsh)
but life goes on right??
so He sends nice ppl who supports me during my hard time..
nice isn't it??

now i realize how lucky i am..
born to be a MUSLIM...
have ppl that love and care about me..
have ppl who lend their ears n shoulders for me..
have ppl to share my joys n tears..
have ppl who share gold time with me and make it as an enjoyable n memorable journey...

just one more thing that i want in this life..
i want to be a good servant to Him...
i want to see ppl tht i love, also doing the same thing...
just for Allah...
and i wish i could be more sincere in anything that i do..
i wish to take care of my eyes n heart..
insyaAllah.. i'm trying now n the obstacle becomes harder...
but know what??
i'm confident with Him...
He'll help me getting through this..

pray for me okay?? ^_^



Sunday, April 22, 2012

hey girl, cheerlah wei...


so today we're having the final round of the debate comp..
n skipping to the result,
we lose to skyhawk with margin of 1..
madi said tht it was bcoz of my RS..
hahaha.. my bad..
RS x mantap.. tp aq mmg tabik springla kat RS diorg..
mantap kemain.. pjg lak tu....
my bad..lagi!
haha... i just talk for 2 min sumthingla..
act i was not prepared for tht..
i thought they'll give us some times u know..
alah, in debate kan we have to expect the unexpected..
and last skali,,
kite x leh salahkan member kite..
kan smua org da buat sehabis baik..
tol x?? so, aq biasela tu..
kecewa lelebih..
mmg i'm not expecting to win..
tp kalah tu rase yg teruk kan??
for me,, i think i deserve to feel disappointed..
baru aq fhm perasaan kimi mase klh hri tu..
aq ckp kat dye.. lekla..
skrg aq pun x lek sendiri...
aigooo...
tp i don't carelah...
i am like this..
u can't expect ppl to be perfect...
juz give them some times lah LOL..
bknnye org x de otak.. cme ambil mase kut nk digest fact n so all of tht...
congrats again to skyhawk...
btw kak ulfah said tht i've done a good job..
thx akk,, train kitorg smua... sorry to disappoint  u n the rest lah...

p/s: settlekn bomba yg x settle lg tuh..



Wednesday, April 18, 2012

missing u guys...

hahaha...
tah nape tetiber aq jadi sayu n rindu gler ngan kengkwn skola rndh aq..
dkt dua thn da x jmpe...
aq adela jgak calling2x ngan diorg...
tp jarang sgt..
yela.. schedule lain2x..
smua dok asrama except aq sorg..
tp aq serius rndu gler ngan diorg...
leh bayang x mase drjh6 dulu...
kitorg conquer team netball??
5 out of 10...
is us...
and 'geng' kitorg mase tu ade 7 org..
5 org wakil netball 2 lg wakil ping pong..
awesome kan??
n nk tau gak...
PKU/Pen.Ketua.Pengawas sraibbb pun geng kitorg..
Pen.Peng.Pusat Sumber pun geng kitorg...
Tokoh Pelajar 2008 pun geng kitorg...

aq x prnah expect pun kitorg leh jadi se awesome cenni..
ecehhhh..
tp serius,, i miss them soooo much!!
tiap kali waktu rehat...
kitorg duk semeja n share mknn...
kitorg akn scoopkan mknn kitorg utk smua org...
so, mkne nye dlm pinggan tu ade mknn sndiri plus 6 scoop mknn member lain..
mmg best n harmoni gler doe...
gaduh2x dulu tu biasela..
masih kegonjengan..
but when all the thing is put aside...
aq rase cam nk jerit2x n pggil kengkwn aq balek..
another two years..
maybe kitorg akn jauh terpisah,,,
yela.. different profession...
sedih kot....
skrg aq sorg2x kt maahad..
jiha maseh setia kat samsmel..
aqis da masuk kisas..
timah kat skola tahfiz KL...
NB, beel n dayah kat MITIB...
agknye mcm manela dua thn lagi kan??
mase dpn itu trkadangnya sangat indah...
tp persoalan2x yg bermain itu mengurangkan keindahannyea...
ibarat aq melihat pelangi tp hilang separuh cahayanya...
camtulah...

btw aq still lg ske bukk akaun fb diorg..
tgok the latest update...
itu jela yg trmampu... sob sob..
T_T
T_T

T_T
T_T


miss u guys...
it's been a hard days without u guys besides me...
but life goes on...
i can accept that...
and all the memories...
that u gave to me...
will always stay here... 
in my heart...


jiha (middle).. my besties since standard 2..

tired~


Assalamualaikum...
tag: unhappy :(

kay...
hri ni training kawad..
pas satu, satu...
pas debate... kawad plak...
aq bknlah bdk maahad yg bz..
itu normal bg plaja maahad...
kawad itu compulsory...
mmg kpd most of them lah...
x wajar n x adilkan klu aq kate aq penat...
sdgkan yg lain blh je buat..
----------------------------------------------------------
so,,, 
nape aq tles post ni ha??
it just like i'm debating about THBT debate is a waste of time..
kan???
hidup aq ni da 20% debate...
tp x nak rate tggi sgt..
coz byk lg priority len...
btw...
esok MAKA n MAGRAD...
tau x ape mende tuh??
MAKA is majlis anugerah kecemerlangan akademik...
MAGRAD is majlis anugerah graduasi 
tomorrow aq kna naik pentas dua kali..
rase cam *_* je.. LOL
yela.. adek aq yg bertuah sgt tu x leh dtg...
so aq knala represent dye...
rase cam klakar sgt amik hadiah form2.../ form1..
ntah2x esok dye sbut name kls thn lps...
OMF!! (oh my feet!)

btw of coursela smgt nk amik hadiah sndiri..
amik ngn kwn2x plak tu..
sooooo nice! ;)
but after tht ade training kawad...
etc etc...
tht's why i'm tired...
yeke??? x pelah...
rehat hari ni sbb x tgok muke dye...
tenang sikit hati...
esok pun insyaAllah x jmpe...

^_^ seronoknye kalau tiap2 hari tng camnikan??
tp plus tired tu... so-busuk-thingy..
huh... busuk cam asbestos.. 

kayla guys...


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

mood swing~


Assalamualaikum guys...
today i just want to babble around...

first, under the keyword of friend..
for the people who doesn't know me well..
u better don't judge me first..
coz, sometimes i can be a really nice person..
but for some reason,, i'll turn out to be a bad girl..
i hate to do that..
and i really hate the fact when people know bout it..
i mean my badla..
some people said that they can judge people from their first impression...
yeah they can judge me..
they can know that i'm not as nice as what other see..
but the thing is...
i really appreciate people that is nice to me..
mostly one who is nice from the beginning of our friendship..
for that,
i will always stand up for what she do..whateverlah..
coz i am sure that she is a nice person and i shall stand up for her..
sometimes, people just spread rumors right??
but it won't work on me when it comes to my besties...
really...

and i always love to make friends..
really love it..
sometimes i become to excited when i met new friends...
usually i start the conversation LOL..
but do u ever had a cold respond from a person when u try to know them??
mestilah ye if u are a type of person yg suke tego2x dulu..kan??
kalau x tu korg mmg jenis x bertegolah.. sorry to say,, but it's fact..
so, what i'll do??
i still continue lol.. try to approach them..
till i get tired n concluded that the person is an arrogant type..huhuhu..

but, when i feel gloomy, uncomfortable/ all those negative feelings..
i will automatically pull out my face ...
and i can guarantee that u will know that i'm in a bad mood for sure..
in that state of mood,,
i have no intend to know people..
new person or what so ever...
i'll become selfish n just focus on my own feelings...
x berhati perutkah aq??
nawww!! i am a person who really take care bout my feelings...
and of course i have my own life principles...
i follow it exactly by the book LOL..
eh,, yeke?? for surela..
coz it's my life..
kan???

many things that i want to do will depend on my mood..
the results is always related to my mood...
sometimes,, jokes cheer me...
and suddenly the negative charge turns to be positives...
kan bagus tuh??

huhu.. apakah pgjrn yg korg dpt bile bace entri aq kali ni??
kenal aq??
hehe.. tahla.. pandai2x korgla yek.. ;)


pahal?? x faham sudehhh

Monday, April 16, 2012

relieve..


Assalamualaikum guys.. 
short post je hri ni.. kay??
so,
in this world...
there are lots of kind people...
n also bad ones...
but u know what??
i'm really happy when i know that someone has change for good..
bcoz as a muslim, we all are related right??
so, we should be happy for others achievement..

my prayer:
Ya Allah,, 
bless that person n me too.. 
bless all muslim in this world n show us the right path...
ameen.. ;)

Friday, April 13, 2012

meaningful~

copied from someone~


Seseorang yang sentiasa bergurau senda di hadapanmu,

Ketahuilah dialah seorang pemurung tatkala sendirian.



Seseorang yang sentiasa menyuntik kata-kata semangat dan perangsang kepadamu,
Ketahuilah tatkala itu dia sedang menyulam hatinya yang retak seribu.

Seseorang yang sentiasa kelihatan kuat di hadapanmu,
Ketahuilah dialah yang sentiasa mengadu lemah di hadapan Tuhannya.

Seseorang yang ketawanya menceriakan harimu,
Ketahuilah tatkala itu dia sedang membalut duka di dadanya.

Seseorang yang sering memberi hadiah kepadamu,
Ketahuilah dialah insan yang tidak pernah mendapatkannya.

never look back~


Assalamualaikum guys...
most of the day...
i can't help myself to think about debate...
most of the time...
i'm new.. yeah..
but i just totally fall into it..
camtulah...
debate makes me stronger...
now i'm not afraid to accept comments..
it lift's me up..
and i'm not the old me...
yeah i mean the one who follow whatever people say...
but now, i can stand for myself..
i have the faith in ME...
i never realize that i can speak..
i mean make people listen to me.. to my words..
and, finally the people who underestimated me bfore...
they start to look at me,
maybe respect me..
for the reason tht i can speak in front n they can't...
and some people start to appreciate me for who i am...
i don't need to be someone else...
coz i am who i am....
but now it seems that our unofficial debate club is having a crisis with a teacher...
and i don't blame the seniors if they are hurt bcoz of the teacher...
they deserved to feel hurt bcoz tc never understand...
can u imagine when a person step in into something without any observation...
and suddenly order everybody to follow their order..??

for me it's totally a NO!

first,
u need to understand things that's happening..
then u have to observe..
n the most important part is tht u have to master the thing...
so tht if u want to change anything...
tht is for good bcoz u know the best....

btw,, i love this club...
i love the people..
they make me feel like i'm home...
so, whatever happen after this..
i still want to continue the meeting...
coz i am a debater and i love debate...
and for sure,
i will not let small matters affect us..
as long as i am a hamidians,,
i will make sure that the debate club will have a great time,
leisure experience and lessons to be taken...
that's my promises..
:D

conducting something.. ehmm??


Assalamualaikum guys...
Praise be upon our prophet Muhammad ..
so today..
cam biase..
Friday = debate right??
i am really thrill to go to the meeting today..
but because i had my PJK session this morning n i tend to have those feeling of kegelian setelah berpeluh///
so i insisted to go home first, then i'll return back to the school...
but it turns to be an unexpected event when suddenly...
after waiting for about 30 mins or more,,
we realize that Kak Ulfah/ Kak Laila were not coming...
bcoz we searched for them..
kat surau n x larat nk jenguk kt asrama...
so, as the eldest one...
i felt responsible to conduct the meeting...
yela... everybody has come n suddenly we just cancelled the meeting bcoz we're lack of seniors??
i don't think so..
yeah we need them...
yeah they're good..
but maybe it's time to learn how to become a leader..
right??
n finally now i realize that it's not easy to conduct the club..
i mean... yeah to cheer them n give something that is really useful to them kan??
i don't want them to go to the meeting for nothing...
at least they've got something from that meeting...

so, first..
i only can think of Q-cards...
so kitorg men tu jela...
then suddenly they look bored..
Anis asked if we are lack of confident, how can we overcome it??
i really can't remember what was my answer...
and suddenly i got an idea...
so i asked them to write down what makes they feel not confident on a paper..
so, we used the same paper n write about it...
then i collect all of the paper, nameless...
and i read it one by one...
and as a family,
we all give our suggestion/opinion/solution to the probs...
it's good really...
but i'm not as good as the kakak2x...
i really miss them on today's meeting
huhuhu... can't imagine what is it like to be on next year...
nemind.. i'll do my best!! insyaAllah...

you'll never know without trying.. :)


Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Untuk Jadi hebat, tidak perlu jadi orang lain, jadilah diri sendiri !


~copied 4rom www.badarhamidiah.blogspot.com




Seorang pemecah batu menghabiskan sepanjang siang di sebuah bukit, bermandi keringat mengerah seluruh kudrat memecahkan batu-batu pejal. Dia sering mendengus dan mengomel tentang kenaifan diri sendiri. 

      Di bawah limpahan terik sinar matahari yang membakar, sambil memegang penukul besinya dia melihat kepada matahari dan berkata pada dirinya sendiri, "Malangnya diri ini... Alangkah baiknya kalau aku dicipta sebagai matahari yang besar, hebat dan tinggi penuh megah. Boleh melimpahkan cahaya dan membakar sesiapa yang aku suka.

      Hatinya terus berbisik sambil melihat kepada matahari dengan penuh kagum. Sedang dia asyik berfikir, tiba-tiba dia merasa keadaan menjadi redup dan dingin. Apabila dia mendongakkan kepalanya, dia melihat ada gumpalan awan besar berwarna gelap sedang menutupi matahari.

     "Wah, awan lebih hebat rupanya ! Ia boleh memadam kekuatan cahaya matahari. "

Dia mula berfikir tentang dirinya yang malang dan betapa bertuahnya menjadi awan. "Alangkah hebatnya awan dengan ukurannya seperti raksasa, boleh bergerak ke mana-mana dan mengalahkan sang mentari," tingkahnya dalam diri.

        Matanya leka mengekori awan yang berarak megak dengan tubuhnya yang besar melitupi segalanya. Tiba-tiba awan tersebut terserak dan berpecah bila membelah bukit tinggi.

        "Wah, bukit rupanya lebih hebat lagi ! Ia berjaya memecahkan gumpalan awan." Dia mula berfikir untuk menjadi bukit yang gagah tersegam. "Malangnya diriku ini dan alangkah baik sekiranya aku menjadi bukit yang berjaya mengalahkan awan dan menumpaskan matahari," gerutu hatinya sambil melihat kepada dirinya.

        Tiba-tiba dia tersedar sesuatu yang dia tidak perasan selama ini, mukanya bercahaya, matanya berkaca-kaca: Rupa-rupanya bukit yang tersegam gagah ini, sebenarnya tewas kepada seorang pemecah batu !

        "Dan pemecah batu itu ialah AKU !"

        Dengan penuh bertenaga ia melaungkan, "Aku sebenarnya lebih hebat daripada bukit, lebih gagah daripada awan, lebih kuat daripada matahari, Aku hanya perlu bersyukur atas apa yang telah diciptakan Tuhan untukku."

        Kemudian dia terus menghentak batu dengan penuh bangga dan meneruskan kerjanya dengan penuh rasa syukur. Dia tidak lagi mempedulikan terik matahari dan bebalnya kekerasan batu bukit tersebut.

KONKLUSINYA
          
Benar, manusia tidak akan melihat sebarang kebaikan pada dirinya, sekiranya tidak melihat dengan kaca mata syukur, redha dan qanaah. Sepanjang masa dihabiskan dengan mengagumi orang lain tetapi memandang rendah kepada diri sendiri. Manusia seperti itu tidak akan menemui kepuasan dan kedamaian hati selama-lamanya. Sebaliknya letih dan rasa terbeban kerana menelan rasa terkilan yang berpanjangan. 

           Justeru, untuk menjadi manusia hebat, kita tidak perlu jadi orang lain tapi jadilah diri sendiri. Bukalah kunci air kesyukuran, nescaya ia akan melimpahkan sifat redha dan qanaah berserta kekuatan sebenar seorang insan. Dalam masa yang sama kita mencari di manakah kelemahan yang perlu dikenal pasti agar boleh diungkai keluar. Dari situ kita akan mula meneroka kelebihan yang Allah anugerahkan yang tersembunyi dalam diri kita.

            Yakinilah, bahawa Allah mencipta kita sebagai makhluk dengan sebaik-baik kejadian !

yAy! i own the glory!!

Assalamualaikum guys!!
finally today,,
aq mmg tgh dlm mood-happening-giler-nak-update-blog! ;D
dah lame kut aq x update,,,
i mean... it such a long time...LOL

btw...
Alhamdulillah we've made it to the final YO!
hehe... i always being excited when it comes about debate...
anyway...
bcoz i didn't actually report the events from time to time,,,
so... here's the summary for the IDC!
btw my team is Zephyr..

~team, let's go!~ :p

1) our first opp was against the form3 students.. (boy group)
i can't remember the group name,, sorry...
but it was an entertaining one!
yeahhh it's the first one...
the first one always be the memorable one!
n Alhamdulillah...
we at the government side wins with margin of 11..
and i got the best speaker for this one!! :)

2) we just felt relieved but suddenly,,,,,
okay zephyr.. u will be against skyhawk....
i was just like WHAT???
hehe actually i really want to meet this team earlier...
it just that they r so great it makes me feel nervous...
n i was just like... kay, stay cool girl! u can do it...
so, skyhawk is a boy team consists of form5 studs..
n,,,
we debated under the motion THBT shopping is a sport..
thank god we're the gov side...

during my speech i've made it clear that men don't understand women...
so, they just said that women forget their family to shop.. n blah blah...
hehe.. n it's really fun to say that since we're debating against boys team n our panel judge is Fattah...
it just like i'm standing up for women!!! YEAH!!
n the result is...
we won against skyhawk with margin of 2...
the best speaker goes to my sis... u deserve it!

4) skipping to the fourth round,,,
we're debating against the NAVAJO..
also boy team.. consists of F5 studs..
n i was just like.. kay,, again,, F5 studs...
they were good actually...
pretty AWESOME!!
but this is the most humor debate that i had for this championship!
yeahhhh!! we were debating under the motion THW make it compulsory for men in military to grow their beards...
n unfortunately,,
the opp side mispronounced beards as birds...
it is really funny till i keep laughing LOL!!
even when i'm giving the Reply Speech...
i was actually laughing my heart off...
Dahsyatkan?? smpai tutup muka malu kt judge sbb trgelak-gelak...

haha...
btw,,
finally i've made it to the final n we will debate against skyhawk again LOL!
i can feel the tense now..
just wish me the best kay??
da~

p/s: i own the glory for my own LOL! i feel satisfied with myself coz now i am appreciating myself more.. and more... DEBATE IS AWESOME!!


Friday, April 6, 2012

up-to-date...


Assalamualaikum guys...
first of all aq rase tjuk post aq hri ni mmg x de kaitan pun dgn ap yg aq nk ckp...
seriously...
ntah knapa aq ske tles tajuk trpesong...
sbb aq rase dye abstrak dan...
dan...
dan...
aq pun x tahu ape...

btw,
aq ad bbrp bnda nk share ngan korg...

1) zone debate competition...
yeah finally!! my first tournament!! wlupun aq just reserved je..
kay terkedu sekejap...
but really actually i really respect trio maahad tu...
kak ulfah, kak laila and last but not least kimi...
i really respect him when they all team up together...
it such... WAAA tiga org nila debaters maahad yg trbaik... (currently bcoz i never seen the alumny debate yet.. :)
aq brsyukur sgt sbb Allah beri aq satu peluang ni...
yang x smua org dapat...
maybe org ckp ini just peringkat zon n org pun x kesah sgt...
tp, pengalaman ni pada aq satu anugerah...
Allah bagi kat aq spy aq belajar dn improve...
betol x??
Alhamdulillah...

2) intraschool debate competition...
aq smgt gler do nk prgi debate ni...
yela,,, team can be choose by your own!!
HEVOGUE giler!!!
kay, doakan aq dpt masuk final tau...
sbb aq masuk ni bkn utk menang tp utk EXPERIENCE....
yela,,, experience teaches fools.. :D

kay that's all kowttt... 
Assalamulaikum...