Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Saturday, July 27, 2013


"Why do i need to have the faintest memory with my friends"

Bkk wechat, tgok moments, kwn2 upload gmbar iftar.
Bkk blog kwn, pun update psl iftar.
Tbh, aq teringin nk join diorg smua.
Last year, n gathering mcm ni bkn blh buat selalu.
Tp parents aq x bg..
Sbb spm reasons which i kinda disagree
But anyway, hidup ni x leh lwn parents..
Nnt x berkat..
U cn argue but accept their decisions..
Allah lebih tahu hikmahnya

Wednesday, July 24, 2013


I always lead to nowhere,
But there's always something that comes in my way

The thing is, whatever it is, just grab it, there's always something that you can do with anything

Saturday, July 20, 2013

the sky is not my limit, i am

beberapa hari lalu,
hidup aq rasa mcm naik roller coaster,
ups and downs yg laju giler..
x menyalahkan sesiapa,
bersyukur sebab semua tu ujian Allah..

dia dan dia, kau dan mereka
semua tu ujian
nak tengok sekental mana iman di dada
dan sehebat mana akalku bisa berkata-kata

*mengeluh sekejap*
macam lepas naik roller coaster,
tapi macam mana pun hidup kena sentiasa move on..
kalau nak difikirkan..
dari sejak aq lahir,
dh berapa kali aq terfikir-fikir untuk give up bila aq frust or rasa cam dh buntu sangat..
but in the end, there's always a way dan...
here i am..
still here, breathing perfectly well,
passed my UPSR, PMR *those-exhausting-exams*
passed certain challenge that i thought i would rather die than facing it..
and yeah here. i. am.

so that was the past..
after living for 17 years and a few days *bajet berpengalaman sebentar*
i've learnt that, in life, there are always two things that will happen when things happen..
first, you succeed and be happy
second, you don't succeed, cry a river and then move on, learn something new and be a better person..

from what i've finally learnt,
i feel more mature
when i want to do something and i'm afraid of the consequences ,
i'll tell myself those two things..
if this is not happening then i'll just move on..
simple and i have anything to lose..

being dare to do things and accept challenges is extremely fun,
the feeling of putting your efforts,
worrying about those things.. are great!
and the best part is when i tell myself that i'm up for the challenges after making my decisions..
yup it feels great to choose who are going to hurt you and how you're going to get hurt..
cuz, even if i get hurt, i feel satisfied that i'm awared of that before :D

so now,
even if it's not spring and blossom,
it will be great later..
i always believe in that..
whatever it is,
every true story will has a happy ending :)

p/s: i think now mom will give in to my decision to become a csi, she has admitted to my teacher that i've been dreaming to become one since i was a lil child.. lets just pray for the best :D

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

first ramadan

So, how was the first day of ramadan feels like?

To me, it was quite tiring and i got a headache but everything goes slowly this month which makes it very calm and i love it..

Much to my surprise,
lots of people are changing.. in just a blink of an eye, today..
most of my friends, they started to increase their good deeds,
the mosque during recess is now full with students performing duha prayer which is really nice :)
before this, usually students will go to the canteen or perform their duties during recess,
but since it's ramadan, our teachers started to reduce the school's activity and give more time for us to recite qur'an and perform our prayer..
and i think the best thing in maahad during ramadan is tadarus Al-Qur'an..
it's quite rare for us to tadarus together in other months, but during ramadan, it is compulsory for all of us to tadarus together..
i love tadarus since we get to recite qur'an together..
it's like everybody is going for it and it's fun!
the best part is that you get to recite it with your friends..
it feels better than reciting it alone :D
it adds enjoyment on our hunt to increase our good deeds..
and nobody is left behind :')

so i think that's it.. i'm quite fatigue to tell more about my first day and elaborate it..
but let's just have something than nothing isn't it? hahah..
well i kinda miss my friends on twitter and tweeting too.. which is one of the reason why i keep updating my blog.. it's just simply because i want to talk..
heheh.. i think my blog is like my second home, a form of escapism from the real world and a medium to express my thoughts and feelings..
it's been almost five years and it never gets old..
okaylah salam guys!

p/s: btw how was your first ramadan feels like? :D

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Salam ramadan :)

Salam guys!
So ramadan is finally here!!
Say alhamdulillah everybody!!! Alhamdulillah that this year we have been chosen to meet this wonderful month again!
We are the chosen one!

Since it's ramadan, i bliv tht we should use this opportunity to grab the chances and multiple our good deeds..
Now, I would not talk about fadhilat ramadan or etc..
U should go to google or ur ustaz n ask them abt it straight away..
Or read articles from
Lots of things u can get in just one click!

So here, i just wanted to share my view of this noble month..
Firstly, before ramadan, i did fast and i felt extremely hungry..
And as a person who eats a lot, it was terrible!
But the hunger and all, they made me think about what our brothers and sisters are facing out there..
They face hunger everyday with no sufficient daily needs and so on..
So i just need to be grateful for what i have now..
I mean yee mmg aq lapaaar sgt.. But imagine diorg rse mcm tu the whole day/week/year/life diorg.. Sedih doe.

So silalah bersyukur.. :)

Oyeah n mse ramadan ni..
Jadual x padat sgt.. Yep sbb smua org akn lapar..
So kita ad byk mse utk muhasabah dan perbetul niat..
Mgkin dlm ramadan ni kita x mampu nak jd sehebat ulama, tapi kita cuba berikan yg terbaik and yg penting usaha..
Hmm usaha x kisah besar kecik tp pstikan ikhlas..
Kdg2 bnda kecik yg manusia pndg remeh tulah sbnrnya kunci kpd kejayaan..
So klu nmpk kakak or abang termenung jauh n anda sdg baca quran, jgnlah terdetik kat hati yg diorg tu buang masa or etc..
Mungkin diorg tgh muhasabah..
Mencari kekuatan utk perbetulkan n pertingkatkan rohani..
X semestinya kena baca quran 24/7 baru hidup bahagia,
Klu mcm tu sng Allah sruh kita baca je quran x payah buat bnda lain,
X pyh muhasabah, zuhud, tawadhu' dn sebagainya..
So.. Sempena ramadan byk bnda yg anda blh lakukan..
Kan byk msa lapang, skolah hbis awal,
X semestinya cpt2 khatam quran,
Blh je anda gunakan masa sebulan ni utk kuat kan rohani sebagai persediaan utk mghadapi cabaran hidup..
Dptkn tidur secukupnya,
Baca buku ilmiah,
Eratkan ukhwah ngan rakan,
Betulkan niat..

And kalau anda nak baca quran pun x salah, tp biar berkualiti..
X fhm maksud semua ayat x pe..
Yg penting pastikan tajwid dan makhraj betul..
Masa nilah nak cek balik mana kurangnya dlm bacaan kita n betulkan balik..
Klu maksud tu selalunya scan tafsir 4 mukasurat x sampai seminit habis..
So yg penting bacaan tu biar betul spy x lari maksud ayat..
Elok lg kalau tasmi' bacaan dgn org yg pndai bab2 baca quran ni..
Yelah kdg2 x sedar dh bertahun xde ustaz ustazah nk cek bacaan, kita baca je sendiri..
Tanpa disedari byk sbnrnya salah..
So tadarus lah klu nk baca, dpt betulkan mana betul mana salah..

Oklah i need to sleep now..
Whatever ur aiming this year, go for it! Improve yourself the way you want it..
Last, pray for me tau :D

~salam ramadan~

Saturday, July 6, 2013

full of satisfaction :)

finally i ran!!
hahah i didn't really have the courage to do so but when our leader, nadhrah told me that i can do it,
i just wanted to believe in myself..
and my friends kept telling me to enjoy the fun and try my best..
so i did n i got 7th place out of 8 but it was okay..
it was fun and i finished my run and the whole thing was soo amazing..
seeing my friends enjoyed everything.. and i did tooo..
it's a bless that i can't describe even with words..

this is the last year for us the form 5 students and it meant soo much to me and to my friends too..
after acara puteri, we had perbarisan..
and we wore cloak which was really cool..
i felt awesomeee
the costume and all was just perfect..

the best part was when, first,
tarik tali..
i was shouting zuhal all the time sampai serak suara lol..
haha and they won!!
i felt sooo great even though i was not participating hahah..

secondly was when they announced that we are the champion for this year!!!
3 years in a row, zuhal is the champion!!!!
i felt amazing and touched..
this is our last year n this is the best memory for my highschool year..
thanx guys :')

Friday, July 5, 2013


cuak cuak cuak...
takut gler until my alarm berbunyi n play hall of fame..
i guess running is supposed to be much easier than banging god's door..
thus i shld be able to give my best..
i just keep listening to this song and internalize the meaning
*inhale.. exhale..

tomorrow: sport's day :O

so it's my last year and finally i would like to take part in sport's day..
it has been a long time i didn't take part since i'm too lazy
the last time was during form 1, i was taking part in 200 meters..
during form 2, i supposed to run for 400 meters but unfortunately,
a few days before sport's day, our math teacher penalized us..
with every wrong answer, we need to do 'ketuk ketampi' ten times on the spot..
and i had ten wrong answers ><"
after ketuk ketampi for 100 times..
i couldn't feel my leg any more..
it was terribly painful, i couldn't even walk properly..
so did my classmates..
so i quit for 400 meters..
man.. how am i supposed to run?
one of my friends still wanted to involve in lompat jauh and she ended up with ankle ligament injury..
to make it short, since that incident she can't participate in lompat jauh anymore..

so that's the story..
i've gave up on sports when i was form 3 because of pmr..
i don't want to be active or what so..
i also left netball way behind even though i used to be a netball player..
meh.. it's tough.. but sports at my school is not that fun back then..
they always prioritized the hostelians which is kinda a bad thing for me..
since i have tuition and can't stay back.. hmm

so now here i am,
form 5.. all grown up..
so i thought maybe this year i would take part in sports..
and i get choosed for 200 meters which i think i can go on with since i used to compete for 200 meters back then..
but meh i'm not the same..
my health condition is worse now since i'm not active..
what am i expecting duhh?
my impulse per minute this year is 80+ compared to when i was form 1 which is 58 per minute..
which shows how very inactive i was this past 4 years..
and just now i practised with a friend and i can't make it till 200 meters..
i think it's like 100 sumthing and i stopped..
i can't continue..
i felt like puking and fainting..
and sport's day tomorrow..
i don't want to fail them..
but how?

p/s: i should have exercised often and had a balanced diet.. that's what we all should do from the very beginning.. not just when sport's day is around the corner.. we should all love our body.. it's  truly a gift

Thursday, July 4, 2013

the house is lonely

so there's a new thing..
the kids have grown up
they don't fight 24/7 like they used to do before..
and that supposed to be a good thing right..
the house is soooo lonely..
without the quarrel and all..
don't misunderstood me..
i love peace but being lonely in a quiet house is something that is..
kinda unbearable for me..
i love noise..
or actually now i realize i love noise..
or actually i would like to talk to someone when i'm at home..
but there's no one..
ude has gone to asrama..
and i miss her everyday badly..
she is always there for people..
she always make time for everybody..
i can tell that everybody in the house miss her and how mum looks sooo enlighten knowing that she'll be back at home this week..
i'm excited too..

that day she called home and i was answering the phone, i pranked her..
because i miss her soo badly..

Me: Helo
Ude: Helo, nak ckp ngan abah boleh tak?
Me: Helo ni balai polis kajang, boleh saya bantu?
Ude: O ea..
tetttttt ( tefon mati)

and i was like.. what??
she believe that?
alahhh nape letak tefon.. ntah2 bnda penting..
dan 1000 sesalan datang..

ana mom was like, alonggg ude ke??
tak baik along ni...
nasib baik abah is not there or i'm dead xD

i was hoping that she called back and luckily there's another ring..
mase angkat terus ckp: udeee ni along ni... ude percaya ke tadi?
*cuz i was afraid that she will hung up*
she was like.. alonggggg tak baiklah.. along ni.. takut tau.. ude tgok nombor dh betul dah.. tp tiba2 tercall balai polis.. along ni x baik lah...
and i was laughing real hard..
hahah.. i miss her..

then abah blik and mom told her about my prank..
abah terus cakap : along kalau ada benda penting ke, dia nak apa2x ke... *nada dh mcm nak serius so i gelak and act like nothing happen, talk about something else n cepat2 masuk bilik..


so my house is kinda lonely now since my two younger sis slalu tidur awal..
if i have tuition lagilah x sempat langsung nak borak..
and angah she prefers playing mine craft and tweeting or anything else she did with the computer in her room.. so my house kinda feel like it is inhibited..
hahah.. i know right, it's a lie..
adelah my bibik, my mom and my dad..
tp my dad slalu kluar and mom often sleeps early too..
so yeah.. i miss ude

oyeah that two lil kids...
talking about them growing up and become nicer.. *hew hew
that day when i was fasting, wardah made a milo drink for me which was really nice of her :')
and today, sofeyyah made my mum and me roti+cheese and watermelon juice for our iftar today..and it was really nice.. she hurt her finger when cooking for me tho T_T
and she was really excited presenting her cooking for us and i feel touched hahah..
time flies sooo fast and here my sisters are growing up..

so i think that's pretty much of what i want to say..
i'm afraid of the future though.. i just want to freeze the time and have my lil sis as kids..
but hey.. i can't go against the nature of the world..
as they growing up i hope they'll become awesome muslimahs one day..

today, i asked mom to adopt a child.. precisely, a lil boy..
this house really feels lonely without children..
hahah and father says no..
which i kinda expected..
i want a boy in the family..
a brother..
hmmm i know how weird it sounds but i guess i feel too lonely lol..

hahah anyway, i can't wait to go back to our village and meet our cousins this raya..
they are still kids u know..
and i'm pretty sure that it's going to be loud and hectic and fun..
i'm looking forward to that..
so, happy ramadhan all..
lets make the most out of the most this ramadhan..


p/s: can't bear looking at what's happening in mesir right now.. i hope the people can be patience.. mursi is really new for god sake.. what do you expect?


Life is getting more n more interesting.. Hope i won't sink