passion.

i feel strangled.
i can't speak.
why does it happen now?
i will compete for the last time in the name of maahad hamidiah in 4 days yet i lost almost everything i used to have..
i lost my passion in talking.
everything went wrong when i talked in english.
but i can't use malay either cuz it's been so long i've been taught to think in english,
when i tried to search for malay words, i was lost.

imagine.
i have a tongue yet i can't speak.
i have a voice yet i can't use it.
i have a functional brain yet i still can't speak well in either of those languages.

i seem like a meaningless person